aMaLiNa'S wUrLd

a transfer

2009-11-01T00:54:00.000-07:00

KAK BILA KAMU PULANG SIH

2009-10-20T03:41:00.000-07:00

i suffered from demam raya over the weekend.

sent kakak off Thursday night. had dinner at Yakun Kaya Toast (i know right the irony!). reached home at around 11pm. next day, felt super tired didnt want to carwash for FAB before options but did anyway. fell asleep during hist options. ayah fetched me home (nasib baik). went to cut my annoying fringe. got home at around 6.15pm. mandi rest a while. left the house after maghrib to go Mdm R's house. Friday night got home from Mr M's place at around 11pm. Woke up at 7.30am to get ready to go prawn fishing with Abang Adi, Abang Amran, Kak Juliana and the little boys. reached home at 12.30pm. mandi and siap for batch raya. left the house at 1pm. reached back home at 11.30pm. woke up at 7am to go madrasah. came back home at around 12pm (bus was so late! usually would reach by 11.20 max!). watched a little bit of Friends ♥. Fell asleep soon after and woke up at 6.30pm. went to Bik Ya's house for a while cos she got new cucu (!) then balik slept at 11pm and woke up at 8.30am the next morning. spent monday playing facebook games hehe. YIKES.

(wow what a long paragraph)

*the three dots in a triangle shape that represents hence/therefore* DEMAM RAYA

i was already feeling oompy loompy at Ms W's place and had sore throat and blocked ears the entire day but pressed on because Batch Raya setahun sekali and this year final year some more. AH LOVE YOU KENGKAWANZ.

tomorrow the EAGER BEAVERZ ♥ will be going to the Organic Farm. im so eggcited! love eager beavers ttm!

i had the WORST. BUS. RIDE. EVER. today ): i was happily sitting on the inside seat going to doze off already on the way home from school. then suddenly this huge ang moh guy sat next to me. okay fine. but he was freaking huge. his shoulder was pressing against my (frail/or not) shoulder and his arm hair was tickling my arm. EEW. so i shifted my position. so did he. then his elbow was at my waist! OMG SUPER UNCOMFORTABLE TTM. I WANTED TO CRY. LIKE MAJOR VIOLATION OF PERSONAL SPACE. REALLY I WANTED TO CRY. i kept shifting about hoping he'd get the hint that he's too close for comfort but to no avail SIGH. i was praying you know like "Ya Allah please let this guy alight the bus soon!". i had a headache from all the distress i was experiencing. i wanted to change seat, kept looking around for a good seat but was afraid he'd feel offended. so i prayed some more. OMG. really wanted to cry. i was hoping a nice Muslim abang would come and save me (i dont know how lah but ya that was what i was imagining in my head at that point of time). and to make things worst he was SLEEPING ZOMG DUDE GET THE HINT. and i was already like literally stuck to the window trying to be as far away from him. i didnt even get to listen and enjoy to Good Girls Go Bad when it was playing. ahhh i really wanted to cry. then Allah answered my prayer and made the guy alight. right then i experienced the hugest amount of relief ever and i started to relax a bit but was afraid another even huger dood would come sit next to me, so i was still on my toes (haha) but omg DISGUSTING. EXPERIENCE. TTM.

and right now i must finish karangan ): i dont know how to do ): like takda inspiration ): AHHH ): i have a feeling i'll get like a C6 for HML now.

and all this stress about netball in JC is starting to take its toll on me.

kak when you come back and have ONE WEEK LEAVE can we please go shopping for prom stuff ? then we can go Tampines and eat sushi again, my treat (for real this time!).

OKAY ITS WAKA-WAKA TIME (or maybe karangan ?)

TONIGHT IS SMART MAMAT NIGHT!

2009-10-14T06:52:00.000-07:00

ALAMAK THIS PEEKTURE TOO KEEYOOT. I MEAN WE'RE ALL WEARING THE SAME SHADE OF GREEN AND WE SMILE LIKE WE REALLY DAMN HAPPY. I LOVE PRETTY PHOTOS(:

haha don't mind me im slightly high now. beats me.

oh man i think i've got an eggciting week ahead of me (although its already wednesday but come on i mean first part of the week was busy integrating ah please). yesterday was power ttm ttm ttm. especially because i listened to adri's heavily japan-ised/korean-ised mp3 which made me happy(: then wah for history we watched PENDEKAR BUJANG LAPOK! and i realised my family heavily quotes from this movie like "pengampu orang kaya!" and "naaasib badaaan". hahaha. then it was PHUN TIME with farah, kak hidayah and lenzo. where we laughed and ate. haha pure good PHUN. "seperti katak makan lalat", now cikgu, that is bukti to our penguasaan bahasa okay.

oh ya i spelled "LAPISAN" in the HML Paper as "LAPASIN" in my imbuhan section. *smacks head 47198461096 times* kind of like how i wrote "bagai embun di hujung daun" instead of "bagai embun di hujung rumput". WAH PIANGZ SLENG TTM.

today i went to the HYDROPONICS FARM! hahah damn phun i tell you especially with the eager beavers and our symbolic initiation of the leave badge (for joy, curry leaf badge!). bought kobis (cabbage!) and cili padi for ibu and got free xiao bai cai(: yay marketing ftw!

and omg its time i change my school shoes but i have this emotional attachment to my cute little orange Nike tick shoes. i mean they went through thick and thin of school's emotional roller coaster ride with me because their always there. (HAHA WHAT THE PONG AMA WHAT THE PONG). haha but omg it's in a terrible state just ask anybody. basically my shoes collect grass, can talk, i can trip over my own sole that is flapping AND when it rains my socks get wet. HAIYAHZ.

tmr will be short day! because no options. farah and i will cuci mata and get inspired for FAM! haha my mumz is so cute. she told me to wear baju kebaya for FAM but her alternative was to buy kain from Arab Street to tempah baju. ZOMG MY MUMMY! hahaha. ya and tmr night i will send kakak off at airport too(:

then friday, i hope we'll be going to Mdm R's house because its freaking awesome like a maze! i hope she gets us pizza again. i havent had Italian in a while! although i watched Cinema Paradiso for Lit! but if not, let's go ISLAND CREAMERY!

eh omg i ♥ my Lit option. I mean we've watched Secret Heave, Wizard of Oz, Psycho AND Cinema Paradiso. are you jealous or whaat dood! and now we're watching Thelma and Louise. Wah power and super enlightening when we discuss the movie man. hahaha i feel like i've matured (yea right!)

saturday morning will be PRAWNING with abang! ♥ wah cannot wait man cannot! then batch raya day two! and hopefully more photos i mean i keep forgetting to take photos. OMG I HAVE LOST MY MOJO YA'LL SOMEBODY CALL 911 SHAWTY FIRE BURNING ON THE DANCEFLOOR WHOAH.

OKAY TOMORROW ONWARDS I WILL BRING MY CAMERA AROUND AND JUST SNAP PHOTOS! YAY CLAP HANDS!

results have been mediocre ? eew. i expected more from English though. and i expected BULL for SS and Bio but i did better than i expected but still bad ah in the end. i expect to do BULL for history too but i hope for a 3.6-4.0 for chem, math, physics (please?) and then i'll just have to settle for what i felt was my best(:

again i emphasise: RESULTS ARE SO TEMPORARY(:

okay bye ya'll take care!

TOMORROW!

2009-10-12T06:02:00.000-07:00

hilyah & amalina ♥
we were relak-ing at Dunkin' Donuts at KL while ibu was buying tudung(:

RIGHT NOW I REALLY WANT TO FART (AFTER EATING BEANS) IN INTEGRATION'S FACE REALLY. WAHPIANGZ.

after tomorrow

i will go to the gym more often during my breaks

i will go ask abang when he's not working then can go swimming

i will contact Florence and Kelly about our Bio PT

i will start on my Reflective Essay for History

i will read Berita Harian everyday

i will do something Malay-related everyday

i will sleep properly

i want to go prom-shopping with my sister actually. i kind of trust her taste in clothes. but kakak why you so busy! i want to go eat sushi at Tampines again kak, my treat (yea right).

OKAY SHOULD I SLEEP OR INTEGRATE?

ANSWER: SLEEP!

CORRECT FULL MARKS

10 POINTS OUT OF 10 POINTS(:

TMTH

2009-10-08T08:03:00.001-07:00

Hello Happy Group I Love Ya'll Too Much(:

Let me update you guys on my progress with regards to that To-Do List from the previous post:

(whether or not you care ah hahaha)

- ~~Revise for Integration GA~~
- ~~Settle Congress Meeting Thingies~~
- Math Kinematics Worksheet
- ~~Edit Testimonial~~
- Math Assignment 2
- ~~Lit Psycho Plot Segmentation~~
- ~~History Fieldtrip Worksheet~~
- ~~SL presentation~~ (which i have to do alone ALAHHH)
- Math Revision Exercises (haven't finish la zomg)
- Revise for Math PPA4 (!!!)
- Go and search for Malay Practices to do

basically i left out anything that had to do with math. macam dah bingit at math. ENUFF OF YOU IM TIRED OF YOU. yup so imma leave all those to the weekend to chiong everything(:

have been tired ttm lately. like missing my bus stop because i was sleeping and sleeping mega early but feeling even more tired the next morning. HAIYAH PASRAH ALREADY. options is draining. i mean i even had this experimental trial thingee where i slept at 10.30 one night, but felt freaking tired the next day so decided to sleep at 10 the next night but was still tired. so tonight is the night im trying to sleep at 11.30 and see how it goes(: i'll update you guys (like you care hahha)

on an extremely happy note (!!) i had my first Island Creamery ice cream yesterday after bio field trip to botanic gardens. had horlicks flavoured ice cream - thanks jess for the recommendation! jess was so excited about island creamery leading the way and everything but in the end she bought one whole tub and had to zoom off for piana haha. LENNY MAYBE YOUR DOUBLE WHAMMY PENALTY CAN BE AT ISLAND CREAMERY ♥

To Netties: Check your emails! and ideas for batch outing? i feel we as netballers need to chillax. hence, movie marathon like from noon to night kind of marathon at my place! how does that sounddd(:

i was hanging in the corner with my five best friends

i heard that you were trouble but i couldnt resist

wah leighton meister damn smexy(:

DEEP BREATHS

2009-10-04T01:07:00.000-07:00

okay shucks i just realised post-EYAs are not thaat awesome afterall. everyone's level of discipline drops drastically, mine is no exception. therefore, we would find all sorts of excuses to avoid work so that we can have the fun and relaxation that we desired which we were deprived of prior to EYAs. and then suddenly when some divine intervention gerakkan your hati to take out some math worksheets to prepare for the coming GA, you realise DAMMIT YOU HAVE A LOT OF THINGS TO DO.

so in my attempt to make you feel better, i shall illustrate how screwed i am now.

this is my To-Do List (yup the first since EYAs ended, this is certainly momentous) in order of importance (wah im so biased ah heh):

- Revise for Integration GA

- Settle Congress Meeting Thingies

- Math Kinematics Worksheet

- Edit Testimonial

- Math Assignment 2

- Lit Psycho Plot Segmentation

- History Fieldtrip Worksheet

- SL presentation (which i have to do alone ALAHHH)

- Math Revision Exercises

- Revise for Math PPA4 (!!!)

- Go and search for Malay Practices to do (maybe lah depending on the circumstances teehee)

nasib baik i finished covering Philo Liberty (haha how ironic) for COI and there's no homework for bio (which is partly why i chose Mr C's option cos he hardly gives out homework haha). it's quite strategic to put this list here because i visit my own blog pretty regularly (shuddup don't deny you don't) especially now that JUSTIN BIEBER♥ is on my blog music play list teehee. so hopefully this list acts as an internet deterrent for me for the next few days.

now this is my Post EYA Activities List:

- catch up on my muchly-missed american TV (especially GG!) and disney shows that i had to miss to dedicate more time to studying

- finish reading my malay book

- organise my iTunes and update its really old skool songs

- dinner with KBz ♥

- shopping with kakak/mumz

yup so i just displayed to you the parallel between what is important vs what is not and what is desired vs what isn't desired. wah.

on a side note, i have a financial dilemma. no its not cos of lavish spendings or anything of that sort because i manage my money pretty well cheh. i've been saving up for an iPod Touch with Farah since my last iPod meninggal dunia. but then along came FAM which costs like a BOMB (or so seniors describe). ibu suggested wearing baju melayu for FAM which is actually quite an attractive idea to me considering expenditure will be greatly reduced because i only initially planned to spend on a dress and a clutch because i wanted to wear my raya shoes (haha) and do my own hair/makeup instead of getting someone to do for me because to me like waste money ah. (wah long sentence) i mean gather a few friends and we can help each other right. anyway, i can be a muslim Katy Perry at the Las Vegas themed prom night haha.

on another side note, we only have 6 more weeks left in RGS which #1 makes me feel old, #2 makes me feel scared cos the taunting idea of JC is ever so close and real, #3 makes me feel sad because admittedly i ♥ rgs and surprisingly its life.

ah okay i better go attend to my lack of integration (haha) wait later my worksheet cry. (merepek ah ama)

xoxo

hello are you still there ?

2009-10-03T07:01:00.000-07:00

that was a nice happy day that i won't forget(:

okay feels like i haven't been here in ages. it's mainly because:

1) my life has been ...

walaupun exams are over and im supposed to be enjoying this once in a lifetime moment in my life (according to seniors)

2) blogger has been a bitch. wah make my darah go upstairs only.

3) im too tired.

because options timetable is incredibly warped. like you reach home close to maghrib but have like a 4 hour break in between lessons -.-

4) no time!

ya i know right waddahell. its cos due to options i reach home pretty late and then my mum would go "okay amalina siap nak pergi jalan raya" just as i was about to baring or something. jalan raya has become routine because its every night (!!). damn semangat right. and cos it's like a compulsory activity for me because i cannot use "i need to study" as an excuse anymore. (actually it has never been used as an excuse before, usually i mean it when i say "i need to study" haha)

today i told my mummy i don't want to go. begged her macam nak mampz because i too tired already and cos i had to do history homework 8D and there's GA on monday haha

i came here with no specific purpose ah heh.

i think i ran out of blogging stamina. come to think of it, my fitness also damn kental i mean my left leg is still lembik actually. so ya, 'nuff said.

OKAY TIME TO DO SOME INTEGRATION *EXCITED VOICE*

i like smart mamats <3

2009-09-23T07:45:00.001-07:00

look at the little boys. too keeyoot. ♥

options so far have been pretty darn PHUN(: i mean the pre-option inertia is indeed difficult to overcome but once we actually dragged our bontots to class we kind of enjoy it hehe 8D like adri and i had NOWHERE to reside during our 5 hour break before options. like anak ayam kehilangan ibu cos we betol didnt know where to go like almost sesat although it wasnt unfamiliar habitat. so we resorted to napping on the canteen tables after drinking my very muchly-missed vitasoy ♥ it was surprisingly and strangely comfortable like we slept for a good half hour ? power naps ftw.

history option was quite cool ah. i mean macam stylo milo also ah. something about Singapore's role in the Malay World. so we watch PHUN videos and learn enlightening thinks macam when Mr M says something my eyes will open beegbeeg cos like "wow! i didnt know that!". then like got a lot of kewl field trips im quite eggcited!

today for bio we went to the jungle! haha no la, it was Dairy Farm nature park. and no it does not have cows or anything related to dairy products but it has a forest! hahah. today i learnt a lot about plants and the trail was PHUN and good exercise. and thank you flo cho for being my partner ♥

and i've been doing integration EVERYDAY ♥ im surprisingly more hardworking at math now then when i needed to be earlier in the year. but havent touched malay since EYA ish. need. to. borrow. a. malay. book. to. read. asap. eh ya maybe i should start with berita harian hahaha.

golf is an extremely frustrating sport why is the lubang so freaking small! KESABARAN SEPARUH DARI IMAN(: i think i gotta work on my golf pose.

alah why is this post so nerdy ):

the anak dara in me is still exhausted

2009-09-21T09:03:00.000-07:00

Melanie Oudin's damn smexy shoes at the US Open'09 ♥

was kind of supporting her because i like to support newcomers and underdogs cos they make everything so refreshing. kudos to Del Potro for his awesome final against 5-time champ Federer. both were freaking amazing. im also a fan of drama so the whole dissing the linesman by S. Williams was freaking entertaining to me haha. nice ah.

okay enough geeky stuff.

everybody should go watch (snippets at least of) the VMAs 2009. freaking awesome in whatever way you can imagine. like the whole hoohaa about Kanye West dissing Taylor Swift when she received her award for Best Female Video. haha in the end they went for a commercial break after that. poor taylor. Beyonce became a hero and let Taylor finish making her speech when Beyonce won Video of the Year for Single Ladies. gotta admit that video is quite kickass ah. and Pink's and Beyonce's performances wootswoots. but Lady Gaga was phoah. her performance was bloody, literally. maybe a little over the top, overdone, trying too hard ? but her vocals maintain seh. nice. and the weird red lace outfit which she wore to receive her award for Best New Artist. mak this girl ah, is crazy.

okay enough trying to be cool stuff.

eh alamak yesterday my ayah and abangs all wanted to go home early from jalan raya cos manu match was at 8.30pm. WHAT THE PONG. at first i was like -.- because i was super semangat about jalan raya but after watching the match, wah nasib baik balik cepat! it was freaking awesome and drama mamma ttm. alamakkk. when owen scored the winning goal at the what 94th minute is it (?), ayah and i did a little victory dance macam loncatloncat and high five and WOOHOO walaupun it was close to 11 (eh?). i still cant get over that fact but let's move on (fact about victory dancing with ayah lah). ayah ran over to ibu to high five her but ibu just gave him a oO kau-dah-tak-siuman face and blatantly ignored his high five haha. that was epiccc.

EH OGEH OPTIONS TMR SO EGGCITING ADRI AND I GONNA GYM (MAYBE, TENGOK LEVEL OF MALASNESS) THEN WE GO FOR MR M'S OPTIONS WAH SO FUNZXZ

why am i so high. too much kuih tart ama.

xoxo

the best i've ever had

2009-09-19T08:03:00.000-07:00

our first webcam date ♥

today, the anak dara in me is extremely exhausted.

hari raya is awesome, always. but the spring cleaning beforehand is killerz. especially if you are the only child in that house. so yo momma expects you to help with everything. okay actually my ibu don't harap that much outta me cos im not very useful household-ly most of the time. but this year i was determined to prove her wrong! and cos this year i can't use i-need-to-study as an excuse. which i realise is a pretty good thing afterall, i mean i cleaning is as fulfilling(: and i've had enuff studying, betol.

just now when i susun kuih i ate one piece of kuih makmur TEEHEE.

im extremely eggcited for raya this year 8D finally a raya i can enjoy properly without other worries in my mind as i go house-visiting. im also eggcited about getting all dressed up and wearing my KASUT RAYA ♥ and taking peektures of everybody looking so nice and kacak(: OH YES AMALINA GO CHARGE CAMERA NAOWZXZ.

okay everybody SELAMAT HARI RAYA(:

PS. i had the weirdest dream last night zomg.

so this is what it feels like

2009-09-17T00:13:00.000-07:00

77.7% of RN Batch'09 ♥

amalina misses RN and sec4 netties and netball. can't wait to start training again (since lutut pecah/knee break btw. do you know how long that is ?!)

today was supposed to be a great day. but somehow i feel like a loser.
the only good things that came my way today was ketchupketchup (catchup) with PLAY!mates and chem. ya surprisingly i felt good after chem paper.
i shan't talk about the papers. i mean it's over. no point looking back now only to regret right. just gotta remain positive, and doa for the best. it's all takdir/fate so whatever it is just gotta tawakkal and accept it because maybe ada hikmah di sebaliknya(:

"results are so temporary"

okay right now im feeling grouchy and all i wanna do is drown myself in fiction ie read my beloved chick lit (yes shuddup i ♥ chick lit) which i have sadly neglected and chose to reside with history notes. i shan't dampen all you high spirits all you batchmates with my emo-ness (no its not pms, i really feel like a loser right naow). i should stop...

...NOW.

wake me up when september ends

2009-09-01T06:41:00.000-07:00

adri looks damn hot here. you make me wish i was a guy.

READY GET SET GO!

okay now its time to tido! im relatively high for a person who has exams tmr. must be the excessive knowledge on inductivism and harm principle ♥
gosh i love philo dammit :D i hope mr L is prouddd

~~english paper one~~

~~philosophy~~

~~english paper two~~

~~social studies~~

~~malay paper one~~

~~malay paper two~~

~~biology~~

~~physics~~

~~history~~

~~mathematics~~

~~chemistry~~

then...

NEGATIVE + POSITIVE LIBERTY THE ULTIMATE FORM OF HAPPINESS(:

YAY.

question: are we supposed to train at rj once EYAs are over?

answer: yes (hear that netties!)

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wtf i almost logged in here using my inet/moodle user and password makkk.

omg i can vaguely see the end.

i always feel enlightened when i do chem haha ♥

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like sleeping with the light on

2009-08-31T05:48:00.001-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HANIS NAZIERAH(:

four freaking fabulous years. the first person i met in rgs and i will never forget that. thanks for being my fellow giler-pasal-hsm-sampai-joget-at-the-back-of-108 girl and my TV partner and the ultimate bahas queen (gurrl you're freaking talented sia). BFFs and KBs ♥ don't change, you're beautiful as you are(:

in text message
"hello cikgu. selamat hari guru! - Amalina(: "
in response
"Terima kasih Ama! Harap awak sihat dan bersedia untuk peperiksaan. Saya yakin awak boleh dapat A1. Saya doakan."

terima kasih banyak ttm cikgu. saya amat terharu. it's always nice to know that there's someone out there who cares for you and believes in you and your capabilities even if they're presence is not felt physically. it came at the right time. i needed that bit of push desperately.

teachers day was brilliant, just like any other rgs celebration. i was privileged enough to be sitting almost literally the middle of the amphi and as everyone were doing school cheers, i paused for a moment to take it all in. my final year and im feeling great. i love this goddamn school as much as i hate its incredibly competitive spirit. big thanks to teachers who have touched me one way or another and who have made up a significant part of my rgs experience. my final year and im feeling great(:

and this was funny haha. farah and i had to run away before we burst out laughing.
conversation with mr m (who teaches history not malay):
"Happy Teachers Day Mr M"
"eh apa ni! kurma' (ya with the ain at the end). terima kaseyyyy"
ya i gave my muslim teachers kurma for teachers day big deal.

anyway batchmates, this is really the final lap, final battle before we touch home and score a try. start warming up because for the next few weeks you'd be sprinting and there's no time to pause for a sip of water (cos its puasa time). remember to stretch, you wouldnt want to get a muscle cramp halfway and be rendered useless afterwards. see you guys at the finish line, where we'd all be winners because we've put in our all.

okay my final year and im feeling great(:

you make me fall out of bed

2009-08-27T09:00:00.000-07:00

hello zhen i ♥ you.

it's the last week of official lessons in rgs.

EYAs are in 5 days (HOMG).

graduation never felt this soon.

i think im gonna break down soon.

hurry up! i want to puasa! and go terawih!

FADS DAH 6 RAMADHAN CAMNE NI

this time in three weeks i'll be the happiest kid on earth along with the rest of the non-RA sec4 batch(:

my mother and i going shopping for kasut raya wootswoots

EH DAH LAH PERGI BELAJAR.

hey friends get into positions because the race is just about to begin.

ponder...ponder...

2009-08-22T08:32:00.000-07:00

hanging out at the angklung room (:

speech day rehearsal was 4 hours yesterday. FOUR FREAKING FHOURS. like from 1.30 to 5.30 (they eventually only started at 2 but that's not our fault cos we turned up on time, they were just inefficient). most brought homework and whatnots to study. i should have but i figured, who was i kidding. school drained every ounce of energy in me and all i wanted to do then was to lie down. which was precisely what i did. i was only activated for perhaps maybe 15min of the entire 4 hours ? spent the rest of the time being gay with jo, talking to huiling and sleeping. yes i freaking slept until i drool all. cos there was a lot of space thanks to the many absentees (thank god), so i just lied down and slept(: power naps ftw.

besides that, i spent a portion of those four hours thinking because i think as a hobby. although i was whiny and complained about how freaking long it was, i was aware and acknowledged the fact that it was inevitable since there were 400+ award recipients (why are rgs girls such over-achievers). and i understood the purpose for rehearsals like the need for the event to run smoothly. i did complained like "i could have been at home studying.." saving hours ... "why did i even ticked my attendance?"... could've just said i wasnt coming...

but then, i asked myself. WHAT IS THE PURPOSE OF HAVING SPEECH DAY? (why is it even called speech day anyway, nobody really "speaks" what?). jo and i were discussing and we thought it was a nice gesture for the school to acknowledge our hard work, dedication and commitment to what we do. guess that's why they have speech day. but then jo and i thought. DO WE EVEN FEEL ACKNOWLEDGED? DO WE EVEN NEED TO BE ACKNOWLEDGED? WOULDNT ONE WHO WISHES TO BE ACKNOWLEDGED DOES HER SERVICE TO THE SCHOOL NOT OUT OF SINCERITY? it doesnt matter whether or not we have speech day because at the end of the day, the result is still the same. we get our certs. which brings up another issue of certs being a material object and we should focus on less tangible things but let's dwell on that. moreover, the audience at speech day would be fellow recipients + random teachers + parents + random guests. WOULD YOU FEEL ACKNOWLEDGED IN FRONT OF PEOPLE WHO PROBABLY HAVENT MET YOU IN THEIR LIFE?

in all, i would have "wasted" 3 + 4 + 4 + 4 = 15hours of precious study time (which is top priority now, EYAs in 10 days) just so that i can feel "acknowledged". do we all agree that this speech day was meant for us ? and hence, without us, there won't be a speech day. it is to celebrate our accomplishments but instead we are all subjected to scrutiny and possibly punishment about frivolous things like getting stickers with your serial numbers on it, and sitting in the right row and right column, marching unsloppily, making sure your attire is 100% perfect (even prefects were commented on their attire please.) or even forgetting to make sure the front of your cert faces the audience. i mean would it make much difference if my shoe happens to have a hole ? and because of that im not allowed to receive my award on stage ? it's all just a mere facade because rgs girls are not thaat perfect. this insane desire to ensure that the event run as smoothly as possible has gone out of hand to an extent it seems fake. we are like robots being programmed, really. is that really part of upholding our reputation? sure, of course we must appear professional. i believe every one of us understands that but the nitty-gritty just bothers me.

in addition, why do we, the reason for the "celebratory" event, be put not as a priority. i mean im not saying im such a hot shot who needs to be attended to 24/7 but the only "celebratory" moment we get is that 2seconds on stage of which the hall would conveniently forget because there's just too many of us. i've loved rgs celebrations because of the atmosphere it eludes and the happiness that everyone radiates. but why are we being forced to be placed in the kschee, which has excellent live telecast system btw, during the performance segment which is something im sure most would enjoy. why do those who deserve this day not be able to fully enjoy it. perplexed indeed. in previous years, there didnt seem a problem to fit everyone in the hall. but apparently this change only took place this year based on the size of the hall. i guess the hall shrank.

im sure its not easy to pull off such an event and kudos to the organizing team for doing their utmost best but im just questioning speech day on its own. not blaming anyone. do not judge me for saying just what's on my mind that's been bothering me.

the only problem here is, you'd have to attend speech day and hence its rehearsals unless you have official reason. is life enough of an official reason?

(:

she's freaking crazy.

2009-08-18T08:14:00.000-07:00

hello adib i love you. the day i had awesome wholesome fun with kakak and the little boys (:

okay EYAs are in exactly 2 weeks. and im freaking scared. i feel like im doing all i can right now but i still feel like the most i can do is still not enough. how like that. willpower, i guess. just gotta have faith that everything will all fall into place with prayer. and thank god exams are in ramadhan(: just creates more rahmat.

and my calculator just died. on. me. how could you mr calculator ):

really scared for chem spa. shamaine told me to read the solutions "like a bible". but something tells me the chem dept would be retarded enough to give you random questions completely different from what practices we've done and hence defeats the purpose of doing practices anyway because we dont get to apply what we learn. SIGHZ. chem spa like testing more on our knowledge of the topic (which we are unaware of) than the skills of experiment planning. okay what the pong ama. cramming whatever rubbish that seems like chem to me on that "1 sheet of A4 paper of own notes hand-writeen on one side only". something tells me im not gonna use it at all. or maybe like 20% ah haha. okay ama what a way to be remain optimistic :D

im just thankful all we need to know for physics is that when something hot becomes cold is due to the loss of heat energy haha. i love physics dept (the rest jangan cemburu please hehe).

okay im damn exhausted of this kind of life. i keep telling myself there's more to life than just this. but seriously, if you talk about it realistically, does anyone really have other things so-called more important in their minds now besides our final exams in rgs ? hahaa, what are the chances. everyone says failure is the key to success, and only with failure will one understand the meaning of succes. but really, i think everyone is afraid of failure, to a certain extent. as for me, im bloody scared of failure. maybe cos i've experienced it too many times. once bitten twice is shy. point is: don't. want. it. to. happen. again. at least not for this one.

i think everyone logging into moodle now. cos its being ninny again.
oh man you guys, we forgot to embrace and enjoy doing our ss pt man. because for most of us, ss pt was our final pt in rgs. gosh it could be celebratory or relief or what but no matter, it's momentous and we all failed to remember that. dammit xD

okay enough of my "break". i better go find some more random seemingly chem-ish rubbish to put in my notes *mega domo smile*

PS. I LOVE MY BELAJAR BUDDIES (lenz and faraday 8D)

run baby run.

2009-08-16T07:50:00.000-07:00

THE EPITOME OF GLAMOUROUS. ily zhen (:

okay my plans to mug for chem spa totally got spoiled because moodle is being a ninny. in fact inet is being a ninny. ninnyninnyninny. i mentally prepared myself to embrace chem and whoosh all that semangat just disappeared into thin air. yup so i got frustrated and terserong come to blogger pulak.

eh tomorrow got malay remedial so eggciting 8D *not sarcastic at all. i genuinely enjoy cikgu's lessons* :D

shucks i think last week my tidur all super tak tentu arah. like spastic timings and wake up for no reason and dah ngantuk nak mampos but still havent finish homework. but im a damn good gerr i don't (or at least try not to) sleep in class (maybe except bio and history haha). so my tiredness all accumulates and i doom during the weekend. like this weekend for example. i slept on the way home from bengkel yesterday. i swear i considered just riding 156 until sengkang then coming back just so i can sleep longer in the bus (cos it felt damn comfortable at that point of time). but didnt lah so retarded. then i balik checked my email, got bored of facebook and took a nap. and i slept at 12 that night (which is very early relatively). then today, i went to kakak's house supposed to play with the little boys but i slept for two hours while they played. HAIYAH KAKI TIDUR MAN.

and to intensify the fact that i've been very lazy and oompy loompy lately, i ate fabulous food this weekend too(: went for sushi at tampines with kakak ($0.99 per plate!) and today swensens with bik ju, mumz, kak and little boys. haha all in the spirit of better-eat-now-before-ramadhan-menjelang. hahaha kentalan.

haha so many of my batchmates are online now. i suppose all if not most of them are rushing ss pt haha. won't be surprised if i come online at 4am to still see them online xD i love this rgs culture of chiong-ing pts in one night. then tmr everybody all seakan-akan zombie teehee. (i finished mine last week ah tell me im good man)

im freaking happy naow (: (i think because i sikritly didnt really wanna do chem and now i actually have a good excuse not to heeeheee)

WHAT THE PONG AMA. i hope school will be cool this week(: alah but got chem and physics spa. physics not too worried but chem ?!?!?!?!?! haiyah. at least got suci last episode party with azira and diy that night to try and cheer me up. TEAM DENNIS ♥

PS. okay this post so messy i dont looiikkke.

PPS. im so disappointed i forgot to watch national day rally! all cos i was doing surat kiriman rasmi haiyahhh.

the light at the end of the tunnel is flickering.

2009-08-14T08:22:00.000-07:00

i miss being so unburdened. i want to hang out.

EYAs in 18 days. every time i see the countdown thingy in my handbook, its like someone flicked my ear or kicked my ass. or threw a stone at the back of my head.

THANK GOD IT'S FRIDAY.

FOOD for thought(:

2009-08-12T07:45:00.000-07:00

"How much do we really know about the food we buy at our local supermarkets and serve to our families? Robert Kenner lifts the veil on the food industry, exposing the highly mechanised underbelly that's been hidden from the consumer with the consent of the government. The documentary reveals surprising and often shocking truths about what we eat and how it's produced, what the cost to our health is, and how this wave of change is sweeping across the global food industry."

the only ironic part was we were eating (GM) popcorn while watching this film xD

my serial (cereal) number for speech day is BB2. i wished it was GG_ /:

my seatmates are the cooliest.

my english group kinda rocks. besides how we over think things.

my history group is freaking playful.

manee and zhen belong to each of the aforementioned.

i miss kampuchea.

i want to wash some more cars. SHO DO WE STILL HAVE ANY MORE TO WASH?

i want to go out then i can dress up :D

im broke this week how to pay for FAM! FAM is expensive on its own. but im a girly girl im going cos i want to see my friends all pretty (:

let's go for a manicure!

i want some more dried cranberries.

RAMADHAN IS COMINGGG <3

i think milo is the greatest drinkkk.

i want to meet SNSD.

ohkay rubbish.

20 DAYS TO THE START OF EYAS BATCHMATES. the clock might be ticking faster than my heart is beating.

PS. why am i such a geek 8D

stock up on the happy(:

2009-08-11T07:35:00.000-07:00

probably the start of the emotional roller coaster and i started it off well(: i love awesome company and just plain fun. life's been freaking fabulous!

1) national day celebrations were awesome. i've always loved rgs celebrations(: and it's nice especially after the long pause of no mass gatherings due to babi. the whole marching thing by the UGs were kinda cool in a way. not wanna-be but just nice (: sec4 fashion parade wasnt disappointing! though zhen and i got quite sian after looking at 12 models walk down the runway haha. the rgs rock band (named electrica by manee) got zhen and i FREAKING EGGCITED we were jumping about and fangirling about how freaking awesome mr m was on the freaking noice drums. HOLY <3 we were freaking sweaty too like almost at like a freaking rock concert. and i swear we started the whole "encoreencore" chanting okay. OMG FREAK IM ALL JUMPY NAOWW.

2) random kawan baiks time afterwards. malay store clean up was pretty fun i mean who knew we got so many kains ah seriuzly. listening to kpop as we did it and getting distracted because we just felt like DANCING. kudos to lenny i salute you woman you be the pro ah ttm. after that was shower with farah hahaha. COS LEKIT AH. then random shizz in the malay room our sanctuary. and off for lunch with lenny and farah at sudu garfu (: we all ate mee teehee.

3) mugging with diy and farah and lenny turned out failure, namely for me lah. because i used "i forgot to bring foolscap, how to do math" as an alasan/excuse. and did STOOPEED STUFF i tell you. farah's got visual evidence xD plus all the heart to heart talk. i felt so mature all of a sudden xD i love ya'll la.

4) i went to irfan's bday party with kakak and the little boys because IRFAN TURNS 4. so cute the party was a Dora the Explorer and Diego theme. irfan dressed up as diego <3 the little boys were too kiut as usual.

5) national day was mini mugfest for me. i did my overdue physics SPA practice 2 and did some of the math revision exercises. and then i got tired because i was too excited for NDP teeheee. it's at times like these i feel damn bloody proud to be a Singaporean i purposely wore red and white even though i was at home hehe. NDP was quite awesome i guess, the changes were refreshing and smart men in uniform always make me excited :D

6) dinner with family at bedok and it was nice cos i was hungry (: we said the pledge at 8.22pm in the car. i love my family and our semangat kenegaraan :D

7) HOLIDAY IN LIEU. i heart long weekends. i finished my ss pt and did some more math and belajar malay! alamak semangat gue untuk memperjuangkan bahasa melayu sungguh berkobar-kobar xD

8) (let's pretend there wasnt any exam today) carwash with group 3 i miss ya'll so much. looking forward to our next outing!

9) food inc with BFFs ♥ thought-provoking, i loikee. then random fun shit at the playground and pool on the roof of vivocity. i love reliving my childhood with great company. LOVE YA'LL REALLY.

okay im incoherent when im excited.

a disease of the mind.

2009-08-09T19:47:00.000-07:00

OHMYGOSH I FREAKING MISS PLAYING NETBALL I NEED TO MOVE AROUND AND RUN AND SPRINT AND JUMP AND CATCH AND THROW. I MISS THE WIND IN MY HAIR AS I RUN AND I MISS THE FEELING OF THE RUBBER BALL ON MY HANDS. I WANT TO PLAY A FULL MATCH THE LAST TIME I DID THAT WAS 25TH FEBRUARY 2009. (how can i forget that day). GOSH I THINK IM GOING INSANE.

I ALSO MUST FINISH SS PT TODAY TODAY TODAY. AFTER THIS I WILL FEEL FREE-ER. FINALLY A PT IM NOT PROCRASTINATING ON. TEEHEEE. DAH SEWEL.

i'm tired of running, let's walk for a while (:

2009-08-07T07:17:00.001-07:00

i feel super disgusted at myself. i really haven't done much, or anything at all this year. and it being my last year in RGS, it is indeed disappointing to not have made the most out of it. this year has been, without doubt, full of challenges (namely babi) such that so many eggciting activities couldnt be carried out. im sorry if i havent been all that awesome a netballer, an ahli perbayu, a congress member or a hadlian. i regretably haven't done all that i can, and im sorry.

conducting congress interviews were pretty exciting. i mean its empowering and mildly exciting to have a say in deciding who the future speakers of congress would be and indirectly the future of congress. congress has been something i've been truly passionate about, i mean having the power and faith from the school management to effect change, sounds really exciting to me. unfortunately, things haven't been smooth-sailing and so many random things (namely babi) cropped up unexpectedly just when things we getting a move-on. SIGHZ. but i can proudly say i did all that i could within my capabilities for congress. and honestly, i've mastered the skill of minute taking xD

if anyone bothered to recall:

Netball is a terribly ugly sport. The ankle guard tanlines, the annoying skirt and not forgetting the black underwear. Why the hell do I still spend 6 hours weekly of my completely unbusy life running around like a moron under the scorching heat of the sun? Well, it's all because of you! Really, seriously, honestly. You guys make raffles netball funner than it could possibly be. It's time I give back and do something nice for you guys.

I want my captain to be inspirational - to be able to bring up the spirit of the team during a match we're all screwing up, to be able to motivate the team to keep working hard and keep the drive going.

I want my captain to be serious enough when need be like at training - to be able to complete things efficiently and effectively, to keep up the good work short and cheryl have done, to be able to control the quality of training and uphold the raffles netball good name and tradition.

I want my captain to be able to control her emotions - even when she desperately needs to tear or when she's extremely frustrated at her sucky play on court. She won't collapse in despair and start moaning in pain or start spouting vulgarities for others to gasp at.

I want my captain to be able to bring the team together, stregthen existing bonds and forge new ones, to encourage everyone to learn to love each other, to further improve our chemistry on court, to make sure everyone has a sense of belonging and are proud to say "I AM A RAFFLES NETBALLER".

I don't want my captain to just be a person who merely smses the team members to remind them of training tomorrow or be the one who says "Let's greet Ms Chng!" or be the one who leads in team talks.

Because my captain is more than that. I can be that captain if you allow me to. I don't guarantee I'll be the best captain, but I can assure you I'll be the best captain I can be. Empower me with this chance to lead and serve you by voting me as your captain 2009.

Love, ama(:

okay so maybe i didnt manage to achieve as i promised. this year in RN was undoubtedly the most stressful year, i must admit. with the underperformance and the seemingly perpetual roller coaster effect and the freaking torn ACL, sometimes the sweat, tears and blood didnt seem worth it. but looking back, it's at times like these you learn more and you remember. surely we'd improve(: looking forward to working with these batch of netballers in 2011 again (:

listening to the exco nominees speeches reminded me of how my time in rgs netball is slowly ticking away without me realising it. surely it'd still be netball in JC but its a different RN. i love RN a lot a lot a lot. albeit pena lebih tajam daripada pisau (?!? whatever ah you get what i mean) it's times like these i find myself speechless because every word to describe my 4 years of experience in RN is an understatement. RN intensified my love for the sport and it brought special people into my life, of whom i'd find it extremely to forget(:

i have faith in next year's exco, which currently only zhen and i are aware of TEEHEE. its so thrilling to know things others dont hahaha. and i must really thank zhennie wennie zhen zheng. the freaking best captain you could ask for. thanks for making up for my weaknesses with your strengths. i believe we complemented each other (:

not forgetting perbayu since adri and i are supposed to "scout" for potential talented sec3s who we feel are capable enough hahaha. so adik adik sekalian please continuously put on your best behaviour xD

okay all these handovers and farewells and elections and voting are all making me feel old. that my time is gonna be up soon. oh gosh i dont freaking want to go to JC. as much as im tired of life as an rgs girl, im not sick of it. just extremely exhausted. JC seems daunting /: ARGH I DONT WANT TO GROW UP I WANT TO BE THE KIND OF GIRL WHO GETS TO STAY IN BED EVERY MORNING EATING HONEY STARS AND KOKO KRUNCH WHILE WATCHING MORNING CARTOONS.

sighz.

PS. IT'S THE FREAKING WEEKEND!

crime fighters!

2009-08-01T06:32:00.000-07:00

okay i must admit i ♥ the powerpuff girls. up till now. i mean they're just too cool :D my favourite super heroes cos they damn kiut and like i was damn bimbo then so i like stuff like this. i had a damn stylo powerpuff backpack in pri 3 and 4. i thought i was the coolest kid.

haha and my favourite villains or wannabe villains are definitely the AMOEBA BOYS hands down man hands down. ah okay i wish i dont need to grow up /:

glamour killed her

2009-07-31T08:16:00.000-07:00

a random weird DONT KNOW WHAT THE HELL i was thinking video huimin (roomie!) took at melbourne upon our arrival to the hotel(:

"i think while the history department was printing these notes, they were killing an entire Sudetenland worth of trees as well."

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHERYL LEE WEN XSIN! LOVE YOU BANYAKZXZ TTM AH TTM.

meet me in the emergency room.

2009-07-30T07:53:00.000-07:00

i really like this photo ♥

Charlene, Ivalyn, Natalie and Amalina

we spell CINA btw teehee

writing my testimonial is extremely depressing. just made me realise how unaccomplished a person i am. i've been wasting my life getting distracted by temptations and seemingly fun rubbish and haven't really focused on the importance and value of self-achievement. of course, my life does not revolve around achievements. im no over-achiever neither am i a neurotic perfectionist (haha) but i need to start doing significant things with my life. for my own benefit and self growth as well as the others around me whom i love. its strengthens one's self esteem as well. only Allah knows how much ego strengthening i need, seriuzly.

writing my SL write up was a sudden reminder of how much i miss kampuchea. life was so carefree and unencumbered, supremely contrary to life here. im not complaining because i am damn grateful for all that i currently possess and own but im just saying how much i wish i could strike a balance between these two worlds. but that would might as well be like walking on water. it also reminded me how much i owe to the society. i mean our school developed us to active contributors to society. i better start all these while i still can sustain the stamina to do so heh.

school's been fine and dandy. i still do not understand applications of differentiation. its like asking a mouse to read greek. (i am not comparing myself to a mouse and neither is the mouse greek). i've had semangat berkobar-kobar for malay lately. i freaking started on peta sematik TWO! hahahaa. and i have plans to finish the entire kosa kata list. cheh ama cheh. my interest in ss is gradually diminishing. gosh wonder why. organic chem is DABOMB ♥ i like magnetism and electromagnetism(: BIO FTW MAN FTW. zhen and i were laughing at mr c's BIMBO CONCEPT JOKE TTM HAHAHAH. and the topic genetically modified foods is extremely thought provoking. gosh humans stop playing God and turn organic like yihong the orang atas :D

GOSH I THINK I JUST ESTABLISHED THE FACT THAT IM DAMN TOOT 8D

sleep deprivation has been a worrying problem lately for me. i mean it worse-ly la xD because its not that i dont sleep enough or sleep late or what. but i keep waking up randomly like maybe 3 to 4 times a night. considering im a heavy sleeper, that is indeed worrying.

EYA'S IN 33 DAYS. DON'T FORGET TO SPRINT BECAUSE THE FINISH LINE IS IN SIGHT.

priya the unfortunate

2009-07-25T07:12:00.000-07:00

CLICK TO ZOOM!
PRIYA YOU MAKE ME ROFLMAO TTM REALLY.

PS. hanissa say my hair now looks like jason dolley's /:

apathy or ignorance

2009-07-24T08:24:00.000-07:00

thanks tisha for everything! ♥ for bringing the sari, for wrapping and re-wrapping it around me when it dropped only about 2 million thousand times. and best of all to have enjoyed doing it for me. it made me feel super happy (: oh ya and priya and nandita and ankita and rhubbini too. aww my indian friends are powerrr!

its quite frustrating to be having multiple teachers throughout the year for each subject. we've had 2 for SS, 2 for malay, 3 for math, 2 for physics and its not the relief teacher who covers a few days of our teacher's mc. its a relatively long enough period of time for you to have to need to adapt to the teacher's teaching style. im damn pissed. i just wished teachers would fulfill their fundamental duties and that is to teach. who bloody cares about a 4 month course or recruiting scholars. teach your students before they fail man.

can't really remember what i did this week. it just foomed past and EYAs are in 5 weeks. brilliant. im not prepared at all. at all. at all. Allah please grant me with the willpower to keep going for these coming 2 months. sacrifices now, will hopefully pay off and i can let out the hugest sigh of relief as i do options, PE, philo, math and malay only in term 4. cikgu is inspiring, really(: i dont mind having similar motivational speeches for malay by cikgu every week. just as a constant reminder to keep holding on, even if you're holding on to a very thin thread. now every time i want to sleep while doing physics, or go do weird inaccurate, based on stereotypes quizzes on facebook, or dance to genie, i just need to chant COBAAN like in the P. Ramlee movie. then i'll get myself off my ass and get going :D

math is killing me. hence math is unhealthy. i need mrs b to come back to reignite my increasingly diminishing passion for differentiation, no offence to other math teachers but mrs b pwnz you all. like when somebody mentimun dengan durian (or something along that line ah).

bahas is intellectually intriguing. i mean being an ardent fan, i usually pay attention to what the speakers say and formulate my own stands and opinions based on what they say. its food for the mind, kind of like brain exercise. and its great to be able to watch extremely talented speakers because they're all so charismatic and everything (like Mao) it just makes bahas even more fun to watch. if only i didnt have poor self esteem, i would be out there trying to convince para ahli dewans that my stand holds true too. but oh wellz, i'd just remain an ardent fan (: and the tukang lontarkan soalan during open to floor sessions (:

oh well i cant wait for farah ro's party tmr! missed her lik cookie monster would miss cookies when he starts his weight loss programme. APER JER AMA.

PS. FOCUS AMALINA FOCUS.
PPS. i need to read more. i can feel my vocabulary and kosa kata all starting to evaporate.

HAPPY 10TH BIRTHDAY SPONGEBOB!

2009-07-17T07:08:00.000-07:00

i've always wanted to try a krabby patty/

recently talked to a friend about our dream university and it occured to me that i've always set goals for myself but do nothing in the process to reach closer to that goal. that. is. damn. ass. okay i can begin by finishing my math assignment. like because i ♥ differentiation man, it's my life. haha but i guess i need to take baby steps right. plan for the near future first and slowly step it up as life progresses. and my goal is just there so that i can remain focused. what matters most is the process. yup, as of now, i just have to "map out my future, but i'll do it in pencil". yup because versatility is key. SPEAKING OF KEY I THINK I LOST MY HOUSE KEYS MAN DAYUUM.

oh and that same friend who got me thinking about my future, also quotes Dumbledore as a wise man. nice. sci fi ftw.

i havent been training hard enough because im always studying (and yet i still do not feel any smarter) and its scary to start the home fitness programme thingee that A div prepared. yup im slowly building up my strength and stamina and fitness but i havent gotten to optimum yet. so today, when i sprinted for the bus (thinking that i was damn late whatthepongg) i felt my lungs burning like if you know the bus stop opposite rgs, it's like A DISTANCE away from the traffic light. wah okay but it felt thrilling and syiokerz after that because wah who knew bus 190 could make me sprint that fast. i think on court also i never sprint like that heehee.

408 had 4 absentees on monday.

then 6 on tuesday.

then 10 on wednesday.

11 on thursday.

8 today. haha.

its like we're shrinking.

okay lah this is getting nowhere. i want to watch GG so badly but malas nyer nak tunggu the thing load haiyah.

PS. i wished i thought of mini cornettos first.

she's got them boy shorts on.

2009-07-15T06:24:00.000-07:00

ADRIAMA GEHH MOMENT :D gue sayang banget sama lu adri. (dont you think lenny's sucha spoiler in this photo)

ive really nothing to blog about. neither do i have anything too important to do right now. maybe i should just go watch GG ah(: anyway, we just got to know today that a classmate has been tested positive for H1N1. reality strikes and you snap out of your perpetual slumber once something like this happens and you cant help but think that you might be the next one to get it. maybe i just didnt feel it so close to me till now. been really extremely supremely paranoid lately, i mean several occasions i really wanted to go like pharmacy or what to buy pelitup. i keep hand sanitizer in my pouch. and i've been dreaming of getting high fever and sometimes even the frightening swiney only to wake up frantic and realising i have no fever. haha at least i am aware that this is me being paranoid. (right?)

whatever happens i just hope Allah will lindungi us all(:

school's been draggy ): i mean lessons are okay but sometimes you just keep looking at the clock and wished that it'd tick faster. i miss friends like kawan baiks and netties. i mean 408's a blast but this quarantine thingee is hindering social interaction and i can feel myself getting more and more antisocial by the second. though i completely understand the rationale and am totally on the same page as Mr Old Chang Kee. guess it just needs a little of getting used to ?

my room's been a mess but i feel some sort of comfort living in clutter. shows that i have been doing some stuff, just that i havent come around to cleaning up after myself HEEHEE. haha maybe its the familiarity finally starting to sink in. i havent really gotten over leaving my previous house. i mean it was almost too painful, i loved that old place because it housed so many bittersweet memories. at least those memories will always be etched in my mind (omg this sentence sounds damn cheesy).

i need like some sort of retreat or a secret rendezvous. somewhere sometime where i am allowed to be completely swallowed in thoughts and nothing in the world can stop me. haha me and my weird ideas. urh i wished my daddy was the king of the world. then i can go shopping without limits! but that would just mean burying the thoughts/problems even deeper right? which means i will eventually dig it up and the cycle starts again. i also wish calories didnt exist. and that i can go to carousel everyday (assuming my daddy is indeed king of the world) and binge to satisfy whatever cravings and desires i have at that moment. been wanting to go with kakak but oh well..

i feel like throwing myself a party. gosh amalina you dont just throw parties like that. you're not from the upper east side. hell you're not even from brooklyn (no offence).

OKAY WHAT THE CRAP AM I TALKING.

class quarantine(:

2009-07-14T07:12:00.000-07:00

okay so 408's been on lockdown since yesterday and will continue to be on lockdown till friday but all's good because its a LOVE LOCKDOWN. teehee.

yup apparently 409 got a swine case and they're right next to us and we got classmates who were in contact with the poorly swined and the story goes on...

basically we get special recess, staggered timing so it wont clash with other class' recess. this i have absolutely no problem with. i mean we get the entire canteen to ourselves = no queue. NOICE MAN.

all our lessons are conducted in the classroom. so ya no movement out of classroom for PE or MT or lab lessons.

and we get dismissed slightly earlier so that we won't "meet" the rest of the school on our way home. this is quite thrilling i mean reaching the bus stop FIRST. whoah man whoah. azira and i had our celebratory run to the bus stop just now, just to seize the moment heehee. okay tak betol.

too many loopholes but i guess its just precautionary. dont worry mr deputy principal we wont disappoint you :D

basically ive got no problems with it except for this fear because i mean you think quarantine and you'd think you have a high chance of contracting it. and it doesnt help that ive dreamt of getting swine flu and getting high fever lately, these few nights /: paranoia ? haha oh well whateverr :D

SKOOL'S BEEN KOOL because yesterday i reached home at 4pm when dismissal was 2.50pm and today 2.20pm when dismissal was 1.20pm. EPIC MAN EPIC.

okay i feel super wooly now mainly cos ive been really tired despite getting relatively enough sleep /: omg why lik dat!

PS. oh ya before i forget: STUPID BABI PARTICLES IN THE AIR. you get us quarantine takpa but everything else in our lives get affected thanks ah (i would tell you what but alah forget it ah)

xoxo
lu tau lu cinta sama gue
(ARGH FREAK I MISS GG NAK MAMPZ.)

i know you like i know Prada.

2009-07-11T21:04:00.000-07:00

it never occurred to me, though the feeling has always been somewhere in my heart, how much i ♥ kelas kecik. there's really only 10 of us while the other class has like 15 ? but its never not enough(: what's not enough is malay lessons. i mean the paling syiokerz class but only 3 hours each week. dayyuumm.

this weekend is full of everything but homework and exercise. i havent touched my homework (if any there is, i hope there arent). and i was supposed to go for a light jog yesterday but my parents ajak pergi pasar geylang -.- and today nak swim macam cloudy moudy ahhh.

oh ya im quite excited about the new pasar geylang. i always thought going to the wet market was a thrilling experience teehee. and then i talk to feenot and diy about that and they began eew-ing and "geli ah" and deep down inside i just wanted to give them the hugest -.- face but at that point of time, it took too much effort.

this weekend too much ama-kakak time, really. like first pergi cukur rambut kenduri thingee then shopping at TANJONG KATONG COMPLEX (seriuzly kak? macam makcik ttm ah) then impromptu sleepover then later today movieee :D (see i told you i never study)

last night i wanted to go over to kakak's place, since its literally a block away, for dinner since she ordered sarpino's haha and to play with the little boys since i'd be home alone anyway. but i ended up falling asleep at 9.30pm (before my nephs, I KNOW RIGHT) so i just slept over. bangun subuh makan pizza (hehe. leftovers ah i was hungry) then went back home to mandi and go for madrasah. i slept on the sofa and woke up countless times because i couldnt find a nice sleeping position /: but ya very kental i mean so much for playing with my nephs ah really.

EVERYBODY REMIND ME TO DO PETA MINDA FOR MALAY TONIGHT REALLY. I DONT WANT TO GET OWNED BY CIKGU THIS EARLY IN THE TERM.

PS.

xoxo

you know you love me

(damn i miss GG!)

shut up and listen.

2009-07-10T06:02:00.000-07:00

gue rindu banget sama lu ♥

suci makes me feel so many different emotions. basically, im damn confused what to feel and that is weird in itself considering confused is like an emotion too ah whateverrr. i just want suci and dennis and tiara one happy family, please ? i have to constantly and PROFUSELY (haha) remind myself that it is a cerita dongeng dan direka semata-mata. gosh ama, get a grip of yourself (monologue). pokoknya (okay this reminds me of malay when lenny was so pleased at herself for using this phrase xD), MAS DENNIS ALL THE WAY! just please suci and dennis stop salah faham-ing.

skool this week was really exhausting but really quick. i mean besides the youth day holiday, it still went by faster than i thought it would. anyway, TGIF! ♥ TGIFs are best spent doing nothing. then chiong again when the weekend starts (: now that's the right way to go dude.

i reached home at like 2.30pm on wednesday which was an epic feat i tell you. I MEAN EARLIEST SINCE I COULD REMEMBER. and it felt so good to have TIME IN THE AFTERNOON AT HOMEE :D and i finished homework (chemystery wahpiangz) all before suci (:

and on thursday i played actual netball :D okay lah, slightly discounted i played GS which was the least mobile (as in dont need to move too much) and was retarded i mean i freaking play GK and was super confused what to do. but i just whack and it wasnt too bad. managed to do splits and lobs and swaps(!!) and even some (possibly tyco) shots. and i had plenty of rest in between because i must take things slowww (: anyway point is I PLAYED NETBALL AND I FELT SO FREEE LIKE A BIRD FINALLY LET OUT OF ITS CAGE ♥ i fell many times like three times, two of which was just my kental-ness/klutz side and one because i WHOOSHEBANG into ivalyn and ended up lying on the floor laughing (roflmao!). none of which was cos of my knee which was another epic feat :D baik ah. got a chance to catch up with beloved netties ♥ and yay RN BATCH 09 LET PESTA SUKAN BE OUR SWAN TOURNAMENT ♥ IE DONT FALL SICKK xD

today was my doctor's appointment since 2 months ago. and gosh, i waited for about 45min for my turn only to see the doc for a mere 10min but dayum was it worth the wait. cos when the doc was playing with my knee, he said "wah solid". and it was so triumphant and momentous i could feel myself radiating happy :D he said i can play full on in a month's time and no more physio (though i dont mind actually).

BUT IN THE WISE WORDS OF COACH, "DON'T GEI KIANG!" (gosh netball teaches you chinese too)

okay let me enjoy the rest of my TGIF as i await the grand starting of music bank cheh. haha. oh ya im so glad i didnt get into arts fest, i mean your rehearsal attendance would be considered cca attendance and that would suck cos that would mean i'd be sacrificing quality netties time for some musical i didnt even want to be part of to begin with(: ♥ netties too much!

PS. cant wait for PESTA SUKAN batchmates :D

PPS. this post is heavily parenthesised! and lotsa ♥♥♥

PPPS. i want to marry ryan higa ♥

PPPPS. netball builds resistance too (thankfully not against tamiflu though xD)

social distancing ?

2009-07-07T07:13:00.001-07:00

okay upon entering the canteen today for recess, everyone had perplexed looks on their faces. i mean we pretty much understood what they meant by social distancing but who knew it meant thaaat far.

haha okay no lah not far at all. but separating canteen tables as part of efforts to implement social distancing? and hence the non existence of class table for recess today? really? even an almost desperate plea to make us separate our tables and chairs in the classroom to exam format (which everyone was oblivious to anyway) ? whoah man take a chill pill.

precautionary vs paranoia. there's really a fine line between them. i guess it doesnt hurt to have a little bit of faith to hope that everything will be fine (:

today went by really quickly. i mean REALLY. shant bother updating about what happened in school today. this is blogger, not tweeter. but i felt really oompy loompy today. not only did i fall asleep before i finished watching DH last night, i slept relatively early too. and i woke up super oompy loompy. and it didnt help that my day today ended at 5+. gosh. my study stamina suckzxz. i kept knocking my head against the window while in the bus just now. pain sia.

on the plus side, i finished homework before i got home (: i tried doing physics 10 year series but it just didnt entice me enough xD better luck next time Mr 10 Year Series Physics

PS. i sneezed while taking my temperature today. that was indeed an experience. xD

all eyes on her (as i hide in her shadow)

2009-07-06T06:16:00.000-07:00

recently watched a repeat episode of Project Runway Season 5. and thought i'd like to share the awesome designs by the finalists. they showcased their spring collection at Bryant Park, New York Fashion Week. i wish to attend that event one day hahah.

no doubt i was supporting Leanne Marshall since the beginning of the season, ever since the make-something-out-of-car-parts challenge(: her collection was stunning. im so glad she won because she totally deserved it having been extremely consistent since the start. the only thing that bothered me slightly was she interpreted the cohesion criteria a little too literally with the use of the waves for each and every design. unlike the other two finalists who managed to show cohesion without having same patterns but just similar concepts. she could have been more daring with her choice of colour but i guess the classy, sweetness of this collection really suits her personality. she was also the only one who had pants, skirts, dresses, long dresses, shorts and jackets. variety ftw!
my favourite piece is the third from the left. just too cute.

Korto was my next favourite(: her strong POV really showed and each piece was flawlessly made.

love the piece in the middle(:

i was actually a fan of kenley because i like her chinese-y 80s flair kinda style. but she got really bitchy and gross so that kinda discounted my support for her. nonetheless, she still had some awesome pieces in her collection. but im quite on the edge, i mean i fell in love with some of her designs but some i just find really urm weird. but she knows how to use colour well and that really showed her personality.
the piece on the leftest i adore so much. especially the litte detail with the lining using the rope. i mean who'd think of making a dress using a rope.

thought the other two finalists could have reacted differently, more positively to their urm non-success. i mean korto even said "my heart is bleeding now" in response to her loss but really they should have been more happy for leanne and proud of themselves for getting that far. at least that'd be how i react (if i ever was in such a situation ah, assuming xD)

okay enough of Project Runway haha. everybody there're 1, 111 cases of H1N1 in singapore. ARE YOU FREAKING SERIOUS HOLY MOLEZ. and why do i go out without the fear of contracting this extremely infectious disease ARH. okay 'sup with the paranoia. this is cos i was having a nice happy afternoon when i dreamt that i got swine-d. like wth. but seriuzly dude, no kiddingz. somebody get me a pelitup NAOWW.

AND I REALLY WANT TO START PLAYING NETBALL ALREADY CANNOT TAHAN CANNOT WAIT NO MOREE! i mean i can run lightly, i can jump, i can dodge slighty. pretty much 60% of what i need! when is training going to resume OMG PLEASE RESUME THIS WEEK. netties can hardly meet nowadays cos everyone is supposed to practice social distancing. but if you think about it, the three-feet rule is totally useful when it comes to distancing.

HAHA OKAY PLEASE LAUGH AT MY JOKE JUST TO MAKE ME FEEL BETTER THANKS.

i need to see Dr Knee soon. i mean i was supposed to schedule my appointment two weeks ago but things keep coming up. i cant wait for the doc to update me on my progress (and tell me when i can start to play fully) but im still a little afraid the doc might look at his report (or whatever they look at ah), starts shaking his head and sigh before breaking the bad news to me. okay me my imagination hahha.

PS. ALAMAK THIS POST MAKES ME FEEL DAMN KENTAL

someone stop me.

2009-07-05T06:31:00.000-07:00

everybody let's all praise Allah for the existent of the long weekend. i mean seriously, what would i do without you long weekend!

today's been a badbad day ): it started off noice though because i met fads at madrasah. yay madrasah so kiut now i mean they take your temperature aww xD but then we had a new ustaz for aqidah and he made us each stand up and introduce ourselves like NAMA SAYA _____. SAYA __ TAHUN. SEKOLAH SAYA ____. wah okay honestly i dont think anyone at madrasah knows which school im from besides fads mainly because i dont go around publicizing im from _______. that would be damn asshole of me ah, wtf. dont get me wrong, i mean i ♥ my skool (cheh ama.) just that i try to avoid all the stereotypical shizz as much as i can. but ya today rahsiaku terbongkar (cheh ama cheh.) and right after i mentioned my school, everybody went "whoahhh" and i just couldnt help but roll my eyes (which was a bad move, now that i look at it).

DON'T YOU JUST HATE THAAAT MY FELLOW SCHOOLMATES WHEN PEOPLE GO LIKE THAT. WAHPIANGZ.

okay dah ama jangan terlalu emosi, ama. anyway, i spent the entire day eating muesli bars (haha) watching sports (cheh ama cheh), falling asleep, waking up, eating more muesli bars, watching some more sports, then falling back asleep. AND THIS IS WHAT PANADOL DOES TO AMA WTF. wah okay i felt like i was about to have a major meltdown any moment for many moments today but then like damn kental ah.

anyway, pokoknya i didnt do anything productive today. i just finished math ws 7 to 8 before coming here and will move on to do english. BUT OMG SAKIT BANGET DEH.

whoah okay i need to study KEH-MEES-TREE and FEE-ZEEKZ and BYE-OH-LOR-GEE (eh, geegeegeegeebabybabybaby). argh.

PS. omg so self indulgent /:

PPS. oh ya i never really mention my school's name thanks to the new ICT dunno what ah xD

the type of girl who eats cereal whenever she's hungry

2009-07-04T07:50:00.001-07:00

form teacher spoke to us on monday about how this is our final academic term in this school. i always knew it at the back of my head that EYAs are sooner for sec4s but it just suddenly seriously dawned on me that YES THIS IS REALLY IT. i mean i started sec4 saying "omg this is our last year? are you freaking kidding me." but now it never felt as real as it does now.

school's been great. i mean i always say i dread it but i always go home feeling slightly happier for myself. i can feel myself becoming more hardworking. ive never felt this motivated and ive never wanted to achieve something this badly before and ive never worked this hard to accomplish something before. i find myself not rushing, feeling good about what ive done and making the best out of every moment i have. i hoped ive changed for the better but still be able to retain a little of me amidst all the hoohaa and shebang about school and exams. im definitely less terrified about exams now (though still scared as hell for the results part) because i feel more prepared. and lots of thanks to beloved friends who actually bother helping you and keeping up with your nonsense while you be hardworking and not forgetting teachers (albeit weird, i mean most complain about teachers when blogging). but i mean how do teachers do it, they teach students whom they know at least half hates them hahaha.

i mean gosh you guys this is THE FINAL LAP. ive been so looking forward to post EYAs, and the freedom that is gonna be bestowed upon us once its over but ive always seem to overlook the EYAs part. and now its coming right at me, about to hit me in the face.

i guess im destined to sprint.

she goes for ballet with purple streaks in her hair.

2009-07-03T08:15:00.001-07:00

school was surprisingly not as dreadful as i thought it would be. i think i can derive this theory like if you expect the ultimate worst out of something, it would always turn out better (: heheh. lessons been relatively okay. EXCEPT CHEM ALTHOUGH I THOUGHT THE EQUILIBRIUM ASSIGNMENT WAS THE MOST AWESOME ASSIGNMENT. i mean not awesomely good, just that i felt awesome doing it. okay weirdo. math's been great haha. my hard work (cheh) for math paid off, i suppose. and i generally pay more attention in class and waste less time hahah. wah except that one time during history omg sorry history teacher i just couldnt tahan anymore.

AYG torch came to rgs. it was cheap thrill looking at random people run around with the torch haha.

OH YA EVERYONE I HAD MY FIRST PE LESSON IN THREE MONTHS AND I FREAKING PLAYED SOCCER WOOTSWOOTS!

you should ask abang how eggcited and high i got after discovering my actually existent but minimal soccer skeelz and ya basically the fact that I FREAKING PLAYED SOCCER. haha. who knew this gurrrrl could kick a ball eh. oh except for one time i caused a penalty cos the netball instincts in me told me to deflect the ball WITH MY HAND. okay kentalz.

arts fest audition wasnt as bad as i thought. i mean who'd ever thought i'd audition for a musical. and i was super unprepared. the singing and acting bit were okay but omg the dancing! xD xD farah and i syiok become dancing gundus while moving away from the tarian-ers haha. LIKE WTH. anyway, i felt really URGH cos i got home so late like freaking 10pm after mandi and makan. and like you know the URGH I REACHED HOME DAMN LATE feeling. hahah okay weirdo.

school's been just fine. so far. hopefully it gets better! (not)

PS. damn i should have totally screwed the whole damn dance routine for the audition and do my remix of gee+A&A+genie+nobody. that would pwnz and would guarantee me a spot in the musical seh. CHEH AMA CHEH.

before i plunge and hit rock bottom.

2009-06-28T03:37:00.000-07:00

EVERYBODY SCHOOL STARTS TOMORROW SHOOT ME IN THE HEAD WHY DON'T YOU SERIUZLY.

you know the syiok feeling you get every time "woohoo school's out scream and shout!". and then you tell yourself: okay this hols im going to make full use of all the free time i have to get back on track and catch up on work blablabla and then you start making a list of to do's and start preparing a holiday schedule. along the way, your lack of self control overpowers you and you end up, hmm perhaps, watching hours of GG online, oogling at hot korean boys on youtube and doing frivolous retail therapy. but then you go, "it's okay really. i mean i need to rest and have some fun too right. i'll get back to work right away after this for sure. anyway, it wouldnt be called holidays if there werent any slacking or procrastination involved", in a desperate attempt to comfort yourself and convince yourself you're not that screwed. you end up prioritising FUN over WORK only to frantically start a mugfest in the last week of the holidays. and suddenly the hardworking side of you decides to unleash itself. brilliant timing.

hahahahahaha.

on the contrary, i felt like this june holidays were the most productive holidays i've ever had. i mean i did my fair share of mugging and playing. i caught up with people. i did new things. i spent time with family and friends. i was relatively happy throughout (besides the regular pms of course). im no ms perfect, but im perfectly satisfied with how i used my june holidays.

although extending it another week wouldnt hurt. YOU HEAR THAT MR KHAW BOON WAN SIR, with all due respect of course. oh well /: what can a girl doooo.

on a super happy note, the new and improved snsd really power ttm ftw. like they all look really good especially sooyoung with the short hairrr (: and they've got this sexy edge to their new image. from colourful skinnies to this new image, yup it's a pretty awesome jump (: oh and when tiffany goes "DJ, put it back on" in Genie. wah that was damn sexy. im hooked onto that song im already trying out the dance steps (omg you so didnt have to know that) okay i should stop really, im starting to sound lesbo and urm unstraight and bimbo a bit. alamak.

okay everybody, my lovely avid readers, witness how i plan to spend the last few precious moments of sweet sweet liberation before school starts to take over us once again.

1915h (or whenever dah bang/azan ah) - maghrib time!

1930h - SUCI TIME ♥ with ibuku

2015h - pack my school bag! yupp watch me as i display my good gerr skeelz. except i lost my timetable aww ):

2025h - do a bit more of physics(: cos its ELECTRIFYING. hahah okay pretend you're laughing with me please. and isyak.

2130 - WATCH ONE MORE EPISODE OF GG (gossip girl lah not girls generations though both pwnz!)

2230h - sleep time! yup im excited to find out if i do end up falling asleep haha considering my screwed and warped body clock like sleeping at 2am and waking up at 10am or waking up early but having an afternoon nap UNINTENTIONALLY! today i slept at 3am and woke up at 10am and i exhaust myself with physics so maybe i would actually be tired. hahahah.

YUP WHY AM I SO HIGH. AM I ACTUALLY EXCITED FOR SCHOOL. GASPS!

(maybe i had too much ribena lah. ribena! ♥)

PS. im genie for you boy!

PPS. i think i monologue a lot without realising. omg i need help somebody please be my saviour.

PPPS. oh nvm i just remembered blogging is kinda like talking to yourself. i mean for all i know nobody is reading this and the avid readers ive been talking about were inanimate. KAY THAT SOUNDS SAD.

PPPPS. i need to stop ps-ing so many times!!

don't let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game(:

2009-06-22T08:07:00.000-07:00

yet another (pretty) productive day.
with math lesson in the morning. wah okay i miss classmates like BEST TABLE PAL EVER HANISSA and AMANDA ♥ 2 hours of math didnt seem all thaat dreadful surprisingly. although i slept at 1.30am the previous night and felt damn oompy loompy again.

SPEAKING OF WHICH. I NEED TO START SLEEPING PROPERLY I MEAN I CAN'T BE ALL HIGH TENGAH TENGAH MALAM AND FEEL WOOLY WHEN IT'S WAKEY TIME. DUDE.

then HANNAH MONTANA THE MOVIE. wah okay i know im damn sloww but thanks fads for watching it again for me. sorry i squeal on several occasions during the movie. LUCAS TOO HOT MEMBARA YO! ya and i was so emotionally attached to the movie i mean i could empathise with miley/hannah walaupun i am so bukan popstar omg why do i sound bimbo there /: ya so i concluded I AM INDEED A HANNAH MONTANA FAN. ya go ahead laugh your ass off. but when i start doing the hoedown throwdown in front of you with the utmost amount of skeel, don't be jealous dude. i really felt like getting up and dancing to it man wootz. and i wanted to sing to all the songs too hahaha. the theatre was filled with kids and parents. say whaaat. HM FOR ALL AGES YO.

then study-udy-udy! math again ♥ math can be my boyfriend man tak bedek i spend so much time with it it's ridiculous. then fads and i got bored and started doing cheapthrilling on haziq and hafidzhin hahaha. SYIOKERS SIA WTH MAN KITA.

ya then pastamaniaaa. we werent even hungry. just wanted the savoury orangey tangy taste of the pasta sauce in my mouth wtf. then walk around to kill time cos fads had tuition.

on my way home, i started thinking again. ya i think as a hobby, i need help. i want to watch GG so badly. COME ON AMA RESIST. W.I.L.L.P.O.W.E.R.

in sooth, i know not why i am so sad.

2009-06-21T04:19:00.000-07:00

life's been great and a bitch all at the same time. sometimes i feel so damn happy, like having the time of my life. but my thoughts of bliss almost always wander off to urm less happy thoughts. one very common one: I. NEED. TO. STUDY.

okay stop whining and complaining amalina. you're 16 and fabulous. find pleasure in whatever you're doing gurrl, really. no point trying to squeeze dry all the painful parts in my life. *monologue* (im starting to sound like a sinetron)

tuesday was extremely productive! went out with FADS, finally after what seemed like eons. last time we met each other was for breakfast at macs and to collect our madrasah report books haha. met her at hougang mrt to take the circle line to bish (wah yay circle line like damn exciting ah xD) and we studied at coffee bean for about 2 hours(: shared chicago cheesecake and a mocha ice blended and it was math for me and chem for her. thanks fads, for at least trying to help me when i don't know stuff haha. then people were looking at us 'cause we were "taking up space" and felt guilty so we decided to migrate to pizza hut for the student's meal lunch!

food took quite a while /: we took turns to ask the waiters/waitresses for stuff like "oh is our food ready?" and "can we have an extra spoon?" and "can we have a refill on our drinks" (yah cos the cup so cute ah, mentang-mentang student meal xD) and "can we have the bill please" HEEHEE. why are we like that ah fads. was damn full after thaat whoahwhoah shouldn't have gotten the stupid star hashbrown thingee (what was it called?) it looked cute in the picture and was only $2 but urh too full too full.

walked to masjid for zuhur and to continue studying. had a nice LONG talk about clearing the air. haha i love fads and im god damned proud of you (: i'll continue praying for the best for you (: went home and i was damn happy and i felt damn accomplished. damn.
WEDNESDAY WAS ANOTHER DAMN PRODUCTIVE DAMN FUN DAYYY :D

dikir in the morning and i was damn oompy loompy cos i slept at 2am the previous night doing math. omg why am i so passionate about math at such weird times! but playing the tambourine damn fun wheeee. and cikgu aishah's voice make me cair a bit lol. and kak amelia damn pretty. alamak damn pretty. hanis and i discussed and confirmed it lol.

then tisha and i had math consultation with mrs b(: productive ttm i had sudden gush of true passion for differentiation all of a sudden.

then met happy people for lunch at Seoul Garden (: we ate moderately lor haha. and had the funnest time ever. i love you guys. we're the only group still having outings! reminisced lovely memories of kampuchea and shared jokes(: even discussed A LOT of LSL i tell you. project FAB really damn fab-u-lous i tell you. ya i tell you.

went home to do MATH ♥

THURSDAY WAS RN BATCH'09 OUTING AT KALLANG LEISURE PARK
great how we chose a place closest to kallang netball centre too. aww we ♥ netball (:

met at coffee bean and i had a muffin and mocha (again) for breakfast cos i left the house, and forgot to have breakfast /: we went to the archade first and as most of you, my lovely avid readers (cheh prasan sak aku), may know, im so tak gamer punya orang. i only play wii sports and guitar hero most, and i suck at them /: so ya probably my third time in an archade in my entire 16 year long life. BUT GOSH IT WAS SO THRILLING I COULD GET ADDICTED. played the race thingee and i got 2nd whoo! okay lah 2nd out of 3 but yay i beat jia ming heeeheee. played ice hockey where jia and chiam owned nat and i, 2 - 7. then this game where you try to hit bad people hahah i forgot the name. wah damn syiok. then we played this drum version of guitar hero which i suck at again cos i have poor rhythm and zero coordination and later a copy version of guitar hero called guitar freak which nat sucked at. YAY. i dont suck at everything everybody clap hands!

zhen came and we went to bowl! im not the lousiest but im lousy haha. NAT CLOSET BOWLER I BET YOU SHE HAS A BOWLING ALLEY IN HER CLOSET OR SOMETHING COS SHE'S DAMN GOOD NAOW COMPARED TO SEC2 WHEN SHE WAS QUEEN OF GUTTER. had fun laughing at jia the damn muscle bowler wah she can make the bowling ball bounce xD chiam was the underdog who owned everyone towards the end! hahaha.

we had lunch at pastamania and charlene and i shared cos we werent too hungry. had some meatball fusili thing. we didnt know how to pronounce it so she told the guy "this one" when he asked what pasta we wanted. chiam gave up eating cos she was too messy haha and nat and iva's "i need to go toilet" turned to them returning with a slice of cake from coffee bean. HAPPY BELATED 16TH JIA ♥. we presented her with her gift which was heels since she was sabotaged to be Miss FAM for her class haha. love you lots jia(:

went ice skating afterwards and i must say i love batchmates till the end of the next dynasty really. i mean i can't ice skate, heck i can't cycle properly but batchmates took turns to teach/hold me for the 2 hours we were there. indeed touching(: i fell countless times. okay not countless i think chiam knows cos she was keeping count for me. twice was falling with zhen hahah. ♥♥♥

went home afterward with a wet butt and blisters but damn happy (:

sentosa with kakak and little boys and bibik ju the next day. fun tiring shizz. ILY KAK BANYAKZ.

cikgu's farewell picnic! cikgu's anaks damn keeyoot alamak all look like cikgu. im super sad cikgu's leaving, it still doesnt feel true and probably hasnt fully sunk into my very densed head but cikgu's almost like a second bapak. him leaving kinda pains me ): im sorry i did very badly for malay midyears cikgu. MAAFIN AKU YA. im gonna own O Levels cikgu and present you with A1 i swear.

it was sort of bonding with batchmates too(: i mean the playground is such a good place to feel like im six not sixteen again (: getting in touch with the child in us which was dying to be unleashed(: plus happy things afterwards like playing the water and the wonderful shower experience OMGAH.
on a different frequency (ya not note anymore)

HAPPY AYAH DAY!

ayah doesnt really take solo shots but alah so kiut right that pic! im so sad you're so busy during fathers day with the whatnots of AYG but really please be aware that i love you too much and im grateful for everything. sorry for being an asshole sometimes but it happens im a growing teenager so please forgive me.

on another frequency,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AZIRA! I ♥ YOU BANYAKS FROM THE STUDYING LIT AT HANIS' HOUSE IN SEC2 TO MANGO INCIDENT TO SUCI TO GG. take care i know you got them ayam pox!

RANDOM POINT
i must resist going out to shop again. really too much buying and purchasing and spending im broke now. ama stay at home and do math sudah seriously.

splashhh(:

2009-06-15T06:55:00.000-07:00

ya okay everybody look my left leg is smaller than my right aww ):

TRAINING WAS MEGA SPLISHSPLASH FUN. WE SHOULD DO THIS MORE OFTEN!

firstly, SEC FOUR BATCH 88% ATTENDANCE YO!

first game we played was this thing where three people had to continuosly crawl under three chairs and tie bags of water bombs while 3 pairs of other people had to let the bags of water bounce over to the other bag and eventually one last member has to catch the water bombs!

"don't catch at your face. i did that the first time and splashed myself" - nat xD

group 2 owned this game cos we got 17/20 of the water bombs saved (: yay 4.0 for everybodyyy!

next was this dodgeball morphed with ice and water game using wet sponges. haha super fun but i suck really i mean WHO KNEW THROWING SPONGES WERE SO HARD OMG. and i got hit so many times because of my lack of situational awareness including one by cheryl ann lee cheng wai with the beeg mega sponge that hit my right shoulder. wah i got so maddd i ran after her. which meant i sprinted (without pain!!). oh ya next round i was out early cos i stepped out of boundary wth /:

then we played spread and squeeze. wah okay that game was fun ttm! and i dont know who (parveen probably) went to totally touch me in weird places EEEWW. and tickle some more zomg. second time round my reaction was to kick but then game master bekah scolded me ): haiyah.

we played queen bee which is basically protect a player from getting wet you know typical cliche but who cares it was damn fun. we are such failures at defending our queen bee but who cares. liting totally hit me with the water bomb at my mouth WAH PAIN SIA. and char and i were doing mini kungfu at one corner lol.

second round was DA BOMBZ. cos that was when we played rugby. serious. i protected jingjing with all my might so that she won't get dunked so i held on to her and we started rolling on the field while everyone was tugging on jingjing and tickling me haha. in the end we reigned cos they gave up trying to dunk jingjing. AMA GOOD SIA. then we were so pasrah we just sat there and watched other people. wah tired.

then it was slack around and sit in the pool. sec4s had our own pool yay! and we discussed batch outing !! and ya getting people wet is damn fun.

THANKS VIC AND BEKAH AND CAT SHIN!!

OKAY YAY DAMN TIRED SLEEEEEP TIMEEEE!

go squeeze lemon in your eyes.

2009-06-13T06:11:00.000-07:00

probably the best jumpshot everrr ♥

good times in melbourne playing against big bulky strong australians!

best memory: training in the super cold weather outdoors in shorts and shirts, with numb fingers! xD

it's been catchup catchup for me!

met my muchly-missed brother jun hao for ice cream. it was brief and impromptu but still worthwhile. wah boy i miss you ttm! it was nice talking and stuff. reminiscing and getting updated. it's nice how we aren't awkward! see you around :D :D

then online with sak :D

NEED ANOTHER IMPROMPTU DATE WITH YOU SAK. LIKE WALKING AROUND CITY HALL AND TALKING !!

next week's gonna be funzxz!

monday: SPECIAL training. yup it's a surprise bonding training. thanks vic :D

wednesday: HAPPY GROUP OUTING #2!!

thursday: RN BATCH'09 OUTING!!

friday: underwater world with the little boys, adib and danish, and kakak!

saturday: cikgu's outingg!! src!

YAY NEXT WEEK WILL BE HAPPY-HAPPY-HAPPY!

and in between all that i need to find time to study.

oh crap i just popped my own bubble

SEEYOUUUUU ALL. IM HAPPY NAOWWW.

i can see through your blood shot eyes.

2009-06-11T02:15:00.000-07:00

okay so maybe mr beetle was right
thinking too hard too much can get a bit too overwhelming
especially for a brain which operates minimally and superficially like amalina's
my head's heavy of thoughts
that makes me feel all sorts of feelings
guilt, disappointment, resentment, confusion, desperation, helplessness, frustration
yup just to mention a few, totally.
i feel out of place, all of sudden. don't ask. i'm just as stumped as you are.
i need to clear my head. do some yoga. yeah right.

in desperate need of a BFF to hang out till night falls naow
no i don't mean the inanimate BFF i refer my blog as
sorry blog i dump all my rubbish on you. poor you.
i need a girlfriend to go shopping, try on thousands of outfits and then leave the store
i need a girlfriend to binge with me on b&js and don't give a damn whether or not our pants feel tighter afterwards
i need a sister. (not like i dont have one, i need one who doesnt work and have kids)
kinda like s and b, only minus the bitch, sex, scandal, alcohol and drugs.

ARGH FADS I MISS YOU. WHERE DID YOU GO. COME BACK SOON.
you left without saying goodbye, kinda like what s did to b. okay waddaheck ama. this is real life.

argh why am i like that ah.

must be the pms (pre/during/post/whatever)

on a (attempted) lighter note

impromptu kawan baiks outing was noice you guys really <3

"ama can we come over to tumpang solat zuhur after SL" turned out to chillin' and hangin' till almost 9pm ? teehee

what started with hacking into feena's fb account to looking at BABY NOODLEMEMBER to slight swooning to watching music bank! to watching suci (thanks lenny for the sacrifice) to laughing at step bagus anugerah contestants to talking about thursday mursday

i love you guys. what would i do without you really.

okay all of us were exceptionally (cheh) unglam and phail at camwhoring. we temporarily lost our mojo there. this was the closest to getting all of us in the shot. either that or lenny's arm just not long enough. yup everybody go watch movies in cinemas in the heartlands man, seriously.

today's training was fun(: a tad bit lonely since there was only char, chiam, juu and i. zhen i miss you so much please come back quick! and iva, jia, zwt, nat are tioman-ing. it was OH again which is almost equivalent to sec4s slacking. before st margs pri and coach arrived, char, chiam and i went for a light short 3 rounds around the track jog because i need to jog if not my therapist will kill me. thanks for accompanying me you guys. it was nice, no stress, no timing, no 3 rounds x 2 sets haha.

i did pair ball! which was fun i havent touch a netball with a purpose for so long. i merely touched to keep, to move, to whatever but not to use and play(: kay not pair ball, trio ball cos it was CAT SHIN MY KOREAN JUNIOR and char (: (: skipped the lobs part though cos i haven't taught jumping yet. yup i need to learn how to jump again now. although i've been doing my fair share of jumpshots lol. i sat down and watched as they did team ball like highest point and 45degrees. i was so jealous they can sprint and jump so high and dodge so well without pain ): OH WELL, PATIENCE IS A VIRTUE GURRRRL.

i miss playing so freaking much. argh.

anyway, weekly physio sessions with kak amelinaaa is always something to look forward to. i just realised the million and one photos i took with you at rj drama mamma were from your camera, not mine! /: this photo so unflattering for both of us damn. hahaha anyway, it shall become our thinggg. you be at school to study every friday, i be fetching you from RJ and we be walking to MAH togetherrr(: it's just funner this way eh. and when it's your turn to start jogging. i'll be there behind you on the cycling machine too (: im a bit confused how come your mc twice as long as mine but you'll recover well(: (: ARGH WE'LL NEVER BE IN THE SAME SCHOOL ANYMORE IM SUPER SAD. take careee :D

i hate this self indulgent post. go away angst.

the chemistry between us could destroy this place.

2009-06-10T07:41:00.000-07:00

here i am all ready to blog about something only i have nothing to blog about hmm.
life has been filled with gossips and scandals and bitchiness but all's good cos it's just Gossip Girl.
impressive how i could finish the entire season in 3 days eh.
yup goes to show how my lack of self control is overpowering.
oh well. i'll survive. don't worry about me, you just worry about yourself really *winks*
argh okay. hmm let's just see what i write here ah.
then you can figure out how my brain works cos whatever i type will be completely spontaneous wootz

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okay yup that's pretty much how my brain operates.
good luck amalina (:

oh i've been looking at the cutest tshirts from threadless.com really damn cute
oh ayah just came home and he bought me a brownie
aww everybody come do it in unison awww
yum eh sedah pulak tu.

ARGH WADDAHECK BYE

short short TALL

2009-06-04T06:27:00.000-07:00

hearts and hugs and kisses and muscle aches and medicine balls and ankle guards and share soap/shampoo for you guys ♥

today's training was little substance but lots of fluff

okay what the hell does that mean

basically reached school for training at 730 ish

then sat at the walkway and talked to juniors

then while juniors were preparing for the open house for st hildas

the sec4s who were priviliged enough not to be too involved did our own thang

77% attendance today!

yup there's only 9 of us (smallest cosiest batch!) but omg so difficult to get ALL of us down for training haha

zhennie's in china and zwt has a torn ligament :O take care zwt

i got all jiggy with my camera today because i felt like

so the photo above was pre-training :D not sweaty yet

we walked around getting the equipment ie weights from the fitness gym not gymnastics gym OMG

and medicine balls from PE store

and we were so good gerrs and urm exemplary seniors we started doing weights voluntarily even before coach arrived :D

there were enough dumb bells for all of us so we did two hands instead of the one by one hand

and it felt double, not pain but just double ya.

and CHARLENE LOOKS LIKE A BIRD :D

then medicine ball was mega ultra damn bloody pain fun haha

i wasnt able to do much cos it had strain on the knee

so i took photos and videos of everyone

HAHA I'LL UPLOAD THEM ON FB YOU GUYS LOL

then was the OMGOD DAMN PAIN drill that took like forever to complete

totally unfun didnt enjoy this one

and i only did on my good leg

so i will get muscle aches on one leg only

and my left leg will look even smaller naoww ):

OH WELL BEEG SIGH

okay so you might be thinking

weights training lor like that lor what's so special lor

we did a lot of laughing and talking and catching up and photo-taking

and we were just all smiles, no worries, unemcumbered

that's the best part <3

i love you guys you make up 75% of my motivation to attend training

thanks for being a huge part of my RN experience, really (:

i dunno what i'll do without you guys.

and then ms chng popped the all important question

"are ya'll planning to join netball in JC?"

then suddenly everything becomes silent and awkward

many of us of course havent really decided

but foshizzle we wont let our years in RN go to waste

and the friendships we've made go down the drain

let's go for weights training at RJ when term starts you guys

more US TIME <3

love-hate-love relationship ♥

2009-06-03T02:49:00.000-07:00

ABANG IZAM ♥

i remember you trying to teach me math last time

and you were such a failure at it

because you taught me via email -.-

and cause all your talent in math is wasted because you can't translate that knowledge in a comprehensive way when you teach me

in short. kental.

why are you such a geek! haha with the physics and the math.

you were quite a goody too shoes right hahaha

because ibu told me you asked her this last time

"ibu, izam ada girlfriend boleh tak?"

hahah keeeyooot lah abang :D

you know i only spent about 8 years being in the same house as you

of which almost half i could hardly remember

you are indeed 17 years older than i am

and by the time i could actually remember or read and write for that matter

you were off getting married /:

not that im complaining

but i havent gotten enough time to spend with you

thanks for bringing me to my first trip to escape theme park

and thanks for the soft serve ice cream you bought me at umrah where you went to sneak off to buy and never tell ibu haha

ibu say you last time tukang vacuum

you own me man cos i super malas nak vacuum rumah :D

KAKAK ♥

okay why are you so mean kak!

the gap age between my three siblings and i are 17, 15, 13 years respectively

and having only one sister kinda limited my options for play friends

because my brothers didnt wanna play with me ): aww haha

so kakak had no other choice but to layan her only sister

and you know what she did

she always asked me to play hair salon with her

and yup i was young and gullible so i'd usually be enthusiastic about it like !!!

but then naow i realise

whenever i was combing her hair or tying it in a way i then thought was stylo milo or even when i put powder on her hair (hahaha)

she'd be sleeping

WTH KAK KAU TIPU AKU SIH

it dawned on me the other day

so i wrestled her /:

and then i know when she's bored at work

she will go on facebook

or go on msn ya because she's surprisingly a contact. why ah.

or sms me nonsense random rubbish

like "amalina can i borrow your sunglasses? or should i buy a pair myself? or why don't you give me yours!?"

i remember you were always stuck sharing a bed with me when we went for overseas family trips

i even remember when we went to Bali ? when i was 4 ? the two of us sempit tido bawah while the two boys got their own single beds in the hotel room. TAK ADIL TTM.

thanks kak for bringing me shopping and for being the first one to bring me to vivo when it first opened!

and for teaching me the term stylo milo which was kewl back in the 90s hahahah

ABANG ADI ♥
vhy doo yoo lik too bully me dood seriuzly.

like when it was during the transition period between kakak getting married and abang amran living with us and when they moved out

i had to share a room with you. yuck.

and had no bed!! for that period of time!! kena tido on tilam on the floor!! hahah!!

and then i good gerr i always sleep early not like you stay up late watch bola or main xbox

then you takda kerja pergi ambil the ikea snake and wrap it around me then take a photo

or when you laid my clothes on the bed as if i were lying on the bed

and i know you always go out of your room tengahtengah malam to get a snack BECAUSE I CAN HEAR YOU

and why do you like to make me look away, then call my name, make me turn to look at you then poke my face

WHYWHYWHY

ya and then when i was on a wheelchair you always sengaja park my wheelchair at the special carpark space for the handicapped and then leave me there and go get the car. KURANG ASAM.

and then after all that you still can be kental

i remember when we were at city square at KL at the indoor theme park

you were too scared to ride other rides after that one roller coaster ride

ZOMG

i couldnt believe you seriously. sampai sekarang.

but thanks for always carrying me up to the house when i was little and had a bed time of 8.30pm probably and fell asleep in the car on the way home from somewhere

thanks for carrying me up to the house not too long ago (ya not little anymore) when i injured my knee aww

thanks for buying so much nonsense for me and satisfying my materialistic needs sometimes hehehe

aww okay this post made me cry a bit, inside.

traffic-stopping

2009-05-31T01:14:00.000-07:00

last week of school was on the verge of being synonymous to HELL WEEK
yea really, suprisingly
mainly because i couldnt get over myself
was too tired to do most things
and so i came crashing down WHOOSH
my breakdowns are subtle and unnoticeable
mainly because i'll get pissed off with the world
quickly plan what to do
and GO TO BED
because i tend to sleep off my worries (:
i think it's this mindset that no point doing something while im all worked up
better get some rest and start anew, fresh once i can (:

thank god all that only lasted till wednesday, haha
because i got a damn noice duty for spm which only required me to be of assistance to the teacher i've been assigned to
and plus i got a table and a chair, unlike the refreshments people and the ushers
so i used the time well
and did the thing that was tormenting me most, PHILO SUMMATIVE ASSESSMENT ARGUMENT MAP
which i must say turned out pretty kick ass in the end (in my opinion ah, cheh)
everyone used the software thing but i didnt
maybe i'll get points for aesthetic appeal and effort LOL
oh ya wednesday got nasi ayam that's why i was relatively happy(:
and also cos mr L made philo fun hahaha

oh and it also helped that our june hols started a day early :D
rgs owes a lot of our holidays to shangri-la seriuzly.
THANK YOU SHANGRI-LA AND ALL THE INTERNATIONAL CONFERENCES YOU'VE HELD SO FAR THAT REQUIRED OUR SCHOOL TO BE CORDONED OFF BY POLICE
may there be more of such events in the future, aminnnn.
eh alah but my last year already /:
okay let me rephrase that.
let there be more of such events this year, aminnnn.
HEEHEE

it was nice going to school on thursday knowing that YES, FINALLY LAST DAYYY
*bouncebounce*
malay was drama! haha diy made us worry lah aper seh.
oh malay was saddd also because we all did lousily for malay PPA2 ):
BUT OH WELL
history was ttm! because mr M was sick and at home but he still gave us a lesson
THROUGH MSN
yes your eyes didnt fool you
THROUGH MSN
azira signed in using the computer in class and started talking to mr M who proceeded on to teach us how the Nazis governed Germany/controlled the Germans.
mr M is damn imba. i stand up clap hands for him.
and to my surprise the class was diligently listening/reading to what he was saying/typing in the convo and taking down notes haha
bio mr C didnt turn up so i slept (: cos i was super high after finishing philo the other night so i slept late /: okay kentalzxzxz
math was NOTHING cos she gave us back our PT then crazy marks-seeking people went to "consult" mrs B while i stone around again :D
then we got back physics SPA which was irritating because i frikkin minus a lot of marks for wrong sf and no units. kentalzxzxz.
THEN CLASS PARTY WOOTSWOOTS. ate a lot of junk but didnt give a damn.

hello audrey odelia yee xiu wen
i totally know what you're experiencing right now
please take care
and i'll pray you get well really soon <3

spent after school doing kerpop therapy in the malay room
then going for training and did minimal weights because im physically handicapped /:
helped called out numbers for netball dog and bone though hahaa
ayah fetched me home that day
and i slept in the car until i had neck cramps when i woke up
(ya that tired what's wrong with me)
i can't remember what i did that night but i slept early /:

i slept in friday and DAYYM THAT FELT GOOOD
watched antm12 banyakdebanyak then off to yishun to watch movie with them gurrrlz <3
TERMINATOR SALVATION ROCKS AH REALLY EVERYBODY GO WATCHHH
and marcus wright vv panas and kyle reese vv cute (!!)
then we went to diy's place to solat and playplay
hang out with farah and did funny things with her phone HEEEHEEE
then balik rumah tengok OH BABY <3

i went out shopping with ibu on saturday and bought a lot of under-stuff
from socks to bras really wahhh
i bought a dress too. damn pretty. don't know when i can wear it hahaha.
went home to watch disney and Made of Honour :D

today i got up early and went to madrasah to collect report book
urh i did fine ? haha but my arab score got discrepancy sia wth
OH WELL
went for macs breakfast (which i havent had in a long time) with fads
and now i just finished watching 27 Dresses HEEHEE

my study schedule starts tmr
so nope im not slacking
im just making full use of fun time while i still have
GOODBYE FRIENDS
remember to study, solat and don't make you mother angry (:
oh ya and i have this immense craving for starfruit juice <3

Let me freaking go

2009-05-25T05:43:00.000-07:00

ARGH

my heart damn pain naoww because i do not have the chem assignment due tmr.
i don't know how to do physics assignment.
i haven't done my physics filing. how to when i don't even complete my worksheets alah.
i haven't even started on philo which is due on thursday and is SUMMATIVE.
today we got back SS and bio. SS was satisfactory like pheww but bio was ):
AKU BEGOK.
so now im going to file my physics while watching Spiderman then tido.
yup im a loser i sleep off my worries urgh.
THEN TMR AMALINA PLEASE HAVE THE UTMOST AMOUNT OF DISCIPLINE PLEASE AMIIN.
after physio zoomzoom go home and do freaking philo because wednesday is gone due to bloody SPM

walao this feels like pms padahal bukan seh
URGH DAMN ANGST NOW DAMN FRUST
even kerpop therapy aint going to help naoww
i just want Friday to come damn quick, please ah please.

show you that you can (:

2009-05-22T05:51:00.000-07:00

KRISTOPHER NEIL ALLEN ♥

YAY TTM.

ARGH I FREAKING MISS PLAYING NETBALL REALLY. WANNA CRY ALREADY CANNOT TAKE IT. I WANT TO PUT ON A BIB, GET ON COURT AND START DEFENDING NAOWW. I MISS NETTIES MELBOURNE TRIP 2008 TTM ): ARGHHH HURRY UP KNEE PLEASE I CAN'T STAND NOT BEING ABLE TO PRANCE AROUND IF I WANT TO OMGGGGG. DAMN FRUST SORRY PLEASE JANGAN LAYAN.

you got my heart on chains ♥

2009-05-21T07:50:00.000-07:00

(sorry fads if you happen to faint xD)
(the reddish thing in the tube are remnants of blood that could not be sucked out haha)

yup :D
i went to see the doctor on monday and got an unexpected jab on my left arm ):
doc: okay i can give you a jab or i can give you oral medicine, which one would you prefer?
me: oO urmmmm. whichever can get me better faster ?
doc: okay :D *then starts taking out stuff to jab me with*
it was all within reach he hardly had to get out of his chair /:
looked away, tried to relax and the whole time i was thinking of FADS! i dunno why xD
when the doc was done and turned away to keep his stuff
i just let out a yelp under my breath WAHDUH

and then my fever was retarded last night
(right after idol, alhamdullilah)
so like pukul 10pm right so mummy and daddy zoomzoom drove me to TTSH /:
wah scary mary with all the swine flu fiasco
im officially sick of being asked
"have you been to the US, Mexico ... in the past 7 days?"
"have you had any contact with any persons who have been to the US, Mexico ... in the past 7 days?"
"do you know of anyone your family members, relatives, classmates ... who have had similar symptoms?"
WAH BINGZ SIA
i was highly amused at the different types of masks the hospital staff wore. some even looked like donald duck heeeheee.

the doctor (from rgs wootswoots) check here and there ladida
and then she told me she's gonna do some blood tests and an xray
URHHH OKAAAYYY
i generally dont really have a problem with needles but like this one damn pain tak bedek
then i saw the blood being sucked into the syringe
and i just went OO and looked at ayah who looked away
KENTALZ AH YAH THANKS FOR THE MORAL SUPPORT DUDE
blood was so thick and rich and maroon <3 heh
then they transferred me onto a bed and got me into the xray room !
second xray of the year and it was better because the first one which was for my knee, the dude like trainee or what damn slow i was in seemingly perpetual pain ah

then waitwaitwait
and blood test and xray results showed that everything was normal
and apparently it was this MEGA VIRUS WALAO GO AND BLOODY DIE AH WTF
and the first thing i thought was YOU SUCKED OUT MY BLOOD FOR NOTHING ALAHHH

so while they did some stuff
i just lied there
i was being dripped though
wah i was so scared cos the last time i got dripped
i had an allergic reaction to the damn morphine thing
and was puking for days
but this time was just salted water ? to keep me hydrated since i was running a fever
but when the bag full of it finished it started sucking blood out of my hand pulak
i looked at it and was like OO
and called for the nurse who sauntered over macam takda masalah
i was bloody (haha pun unintended) scared ah
cos i could feel my hand macam lain macam jerrr

while i was there
i was of course scared of being quarantined and being diagnosed of some shizz thing
but every time i looked around me
i couldn't help but feel better for myself, even if that sounds a bit selfish
as in really there are so many other people just at that one portion of the hospital who were more far off sicker than i was
and i felt sorry for them
/:

yup and then i went home damn tired
reached home at like 1am ?
yup how fun.
goodnight world.

you got me screaming out your name ♥

2009-05-19T07:37:00.000-07:00

Nichkhun Horvejkul ♥ born in america, half thai half chinese and is now my favourite korean boy everrr :D
LENNY PLEASE BRING ME TO KOREA WHEN YOU DO GO OKAY. PLEASE AH PLEASE. THEN WE MUST BUY COLOUFUL SKINNIES AND SEE IF PEOPLE MISTAKE US AS MINAH VERSION OF SNSD HAHAHAHAH <3

things i must do before i die:
- go for haji
- go korea
- go disneyland
- meet the jonas brothers and zac efron
- buy my own louis vuitton bag
- do some marathon thingamajiggy

:D yup foshizzle.

things i remember from my childhood:
- the advertisement and catchy jinggle of pasta fresca da salvatore
- watching disney on ice 3rd row from the front yo!
- bully at nursery who bit me and pushed my chair (then i cried)
- first movie which was Tarzan with ayah at Cathay Causeway Point haha. i wore this kiut jumpsuit thingee and a yellow teletubbies shirt. i cried watching the movie. who knew i was that jiwang so young ah.
- Fifth birthday my aunt made the most awesome cake ever in a shape of a teddy bear <3
- joining a fashion show thing when i was like 6 and crying cos i didnt get the outfit i wanted
- being tuk kemy's and nek su's child model for their new clothing line HAHAHAHAHAH
- hiding in between racks of clothes with my cousin luqman when we were small until our mothers couldn't find us

TAKE TIME TO THINK, SERIUZLY.

the heart is stronger than you think ♥

2009-05-17T07:00:00.000-07:00

thanks lennybobenny :D

i hope the coming week will be a better week
like i hope i'll be less lazy and study-udy-udy everyday! really ttm.
coming week will be busy-usy-usy!
because of FAB Carwash, physics SPA, Congress GM and all the homework i've procrastinated on and haven't got around to doing it
i never do homework and still am unafraid of the consequences (referring especially to chem and chem teacher)
tmr is first lesson with mrs b for math. im scared. what if she's ultra strict ):
i hope i don't screw temperature taking tmr and have to get quarantined
im excited for malay tmr cos we get to watch SEPI again <3
i will have the utmost amount of imba discipline you won't believe
YA LOR JUST WATCH ME HOR

okay tido time.
i can't freaking wait for june holidays
never felt as if i deserved a holiday as much as this one. cheh.
goodnight :D

topsy turvy

2009-05-16T07:09:00.000-07:00

adri so giuuut :D
i love my bibik, pembawak wabak kerpop :D :D
thanks for being such an awesome PERBAYU PRES. ama would diezxz without you!

what awesome things i've done since my last paper:
- sleep
- watch a lot of tv
- sleep
- watch slumdog millionaire
- sleep
- eat
- watch antm12
- go for facial with ibu

friday was a noice TGIF
- last math lesson with miss shen ): im gonna miss her really ttm. she's so kiut.
- cried watching Sepi during malay when kiut small boy nama dia ashraf was all sad when he found out his mother passed away ): that show almost damn imba as Cinta when we all melalak ttm that time hahaha
- recess hanissa and i macam slums cos canteen too full no seats (walao right!) duduk one corner makan wangwang snacks and vitasoy <3 soon after melayus joined us yay.
- OM performances were entertaining. im extremely surprised at how demure jaslyn's voice can get xD
- english was like thaat lor and observing how damn tailored mr jt's pants are omgee
- physics i paid attention wootswoots. of course i had company to keep me awake lol
- went to watch RN A div match at bedok. seniors invincible how will i ever play like them /: journey with zhen and nat vv fun hahaha. especially the hair thingee in the mrt. will upload a photo soon.
- inconvo was urm okay lah. but i kept zoning out cos i was too tired /: and thus zhen and nat kept me company doing random things that we could do entertain ourseves :D :D
- mona's dad drove me home. bought otah for ayah. went home and watch ANTM 12 :D

i watch cheryl ann lee play GK yesterday and i thought to myself, holyshit, am i supposed to play like that too. am i capable of doing so. zhen reassured me but omg im doubting myself ttm. i figured how screwed RN A div would be if i were playing GK. can i jump as high as that? or react as quick as that? or have enough willpower and determination to keep trying? im so scared.

miss seniors and caught with them like lihui, who is still the same lol, taking down notes to write a story on the match heh. eunice ching was well undoubtedly and undeniably eunice :D i miss that energy.

OH WELL. SIGHSIGHSIGH.

infatuation

2009-05-14T06:55:00.000-07:00

math was just playing with and screwing up the gc heeeheee :D

i want to marry the damn hot damn funny nigahiga guy

kris allen i love you no matter the outcome. your heartless was awesome ttm.

dev patel the cutest(:

watching the oprah winfrey show on sunday morning reignited my love for the jonas brothers(:

click five's new single damn awesome. I QUIT I QUIT I QUIT!

i feel all wooly tonight.

want. to. die. cry.

BYE!

Feel-good

2009-05-13T08:33:00.000-07:00

best and longest study date everrr (:

my stamina suck

i get too tired too quickly

would yearn for a seemingly deserved break

and then regret again later for wasting that precious time

and eventually chiong all the way again

and get tired too quickly all over again

NOT THIS TIME MY FRIENDS

one day just one (:

reached home at 3.45pm

with greatest sympathy towards my friends who had their 2.4run today HEEHEE

yup im the girl with the long term mc yo

collapsed on the bed

15min shut eye

watched tv till 7pm

bathe (haha ya i was in my pinafore the whole time)

watch slumdog :D

now im here

and tmr is back to study-udy-udy! :D

goodnight everyone.

rest well.

just get back up.

2009-05-10T08:34:00.000-07:00

my favourite girl to get high singing with ♥

today i learnt that my brother can seriuzly fill up a shirt. in a good way.

and that kate spade has the cutest bags <3

going into gucci, then coach then kate spade

i learnt that if you are planning to go designer bag shopping

do not bring a cheapo from bangkok clutch

memalukan ttm!

today i had the worst time trying to decide what shoe i wanted

because ayah had nike vouchers

so we went to the nike studio at wisma

i thought we were going there to buy for ibu

and then my dad went "ah cepat choose ayah tengok baju over there"

and i was like oO caught off-guard and unprepared

i took the longest time to decide everrr

like i actually considered around 8 different designs

before choosing one which i can wear to school

but doesnt look too school-ish so can wear jalan-jalan also

abang from another mother made me count how many shoes i have /:

i shan't tell you the statistics, sikrit heh

today was an okay day ?

i miss friends though

that's the only bad part about a long weekend

oh ya btw

my brother can seriuzly fill up a shirt

2009-05-07T07:16:00.000-07:00

Wear A Smile Each Day(:

i think this peekture is noice (: with masjid sultan in the background and everythingg (: (:

i was feeling so happy just now
and all that changed in a blink of an eye

stop being so paranoid

why are you so preoccupied about frivolous stuff like this

it can't be help so why are you trying so hard

it bothers me so much

because there have been too many changes in too little time

what is going on, i yearn to know

i thought i didnt care

thought you were like the summer rain that could wash all my doubts away ;

2009-05-05T00:57:00.000-07:00

i ♥ you chiam yiqin eunice(:

okay sucks. my luck sucks. what a bad timing. to fall. sick. like now. while there are. SAs. sucks.

haven't had a temperature this high (a whopping 38.6degrees wootz!) since a long time ago.

ibu was trying to freak me out when she sent me to the doctor.

"kalau doctor send you to hospital amacam? tengah ada demam babi ni lagi"

wah my mother scary mary me ah.

i have the most insane amount of medicine to consume everyday ):

actually all i wanted from the doctor was the mc

cos i clearly couldn't do three freaking papers on monday

neither did i have the willpower to study for them

im feeling better now, except that my ears are blocked

and wherever i go, background noises seem to overpower the voices of people or the sounds i want to focus on. hmmm.

OH IM ABSOLUTELY HEAD OVER HEELS THAT I FINISHED BIO WOOTZWOOTZ

okay i know all the sec4s already freaking took the paper

but hey even with a throbbing headache i managed to understand all that shizz about DNA replication and whatever

IF I WERE A CHROMOSOME, YOU'D BE MY SISTER CHROMATID <3

okay clearly im not in the most sane frame of mind yet

so i shall zoom off the watch TEENICK (yes cooliest evahh!)

before i start on SS

oh ya btw, my green sheet of paper with the seen article for SS

is still as clean and green as hedda lettuce xD

because i was supposed to annotate it on saturday after bahas

but yeah that was when MR HIGH FEVER BUG decided to bite me in the ass boohoo

yup so im screwed

OKAY BAIZ.

2009-05-01T05:32:00.000-07:00

SolesUnited is a humanitarian footwear donation program established by Crocs Inc. to help provide shoes to those in need of footwear all over the globe.

Donate your old pair of crocs and SolesUnited will recycle it and give them free to those people who need them (:

2009-04-30T09:53:00.000-07:00

i ♥ you guys ttm, really (:

Last week, i felt like i had a life.

1) night out in town with netties after netball dindin(: had newyork fishandchips, chockie junkie and shared cheesecake. dedicated songs. sang songs. took random shots near dhoby ghaut of which half i couldnt be part of cos im disabled and cant do jumpshots. heh. go home close to 10pm and it was kool cos parents werent at home.

2) after bahas on saturday (of which i went up during the open to floor part. wah so scary. who knew ama had the guts), lenny and i did window shopping at bugis. looked at happy superman shirts. masuk bodyshop and tried all the try-mes before leaving smelling damn good. looked at guess stuff like we damn rich lik that. bought a lanyard <3 went to iluma and saw vvv panas male models wootzwootz. then went home and camwhored in the train. listened to lenny's ipod while sleeping but terbangun when nobody starting playing! i want nobody nobody but you *clapclapclap*.

3) sunday was go-to-marge's-house-all-the-way-at-chinese-garden-to-do-cmps. but that lasted for only like 2 seconds of which the other time was spent playing taptap and monopoly. i ♥ my laoren lovers! presentation went great wootz! im sad RS is ending cos then no more laoren lovers time ):

4) tuesday was go home with feena and eat lots of cake with zhenn hahaha

5) wednesday was awesome. after school solat di bilik melayu. pergi ke causeway point beli donut dan eachacup :D sebelum ke fushan :D :D dan selanjutnya ke rumah farah untuk study group sampai ke pukul 8 malam. math and chem ftw! thanks korang. you guys really helped ah serious!

6) today was eat pizza during congress exco meeting yay! WATCHED FEENA EAT HER THIRD BOWL OF MEE BAKSO. WAH PAKCIK THAT DAY BUSINESS BAIK SEH PASAL FEENA. studied a bit of ss. went to see kak ame! GET WELL SOON :D farah accompany me during physio and took glam/unglam (subjective) photos xD then ayah came to fetch us back to school to help bahas. but before that we went eat at cahaya where uncle very nice/we very kiut gave us free char kway! and 2 free drinks! baik ah.

7) spoke sinotren style with farah <3 heh

YUP(:

2009-04-23T08:09:00.001-07:00

imba lah feena
this reminds me of what farah said
if we were on this thing with ______
nanti terlambung badan LOL

okay tak coherent for sure
BUT I FINISHED MY HISTORY PT
never felt so triumphant!

okay dah bye nak tido ah
why i talk in malay sia
ni triumphant sangat ah
anyway today during the perbualan dunno what during malay
i kept repeating the same points but paraphrasing it
baik
<3 KRIS ALLEN!
and KAK AMELINAAA PLEASE OH PLEASE TAKE CARE!! :D

2009-04-19T07:25:00.000-07:00

HEEHEE i ♥ you feena, really. despite this.
it was really fun returning to our roots ie playing at the playground :D
okay so it was incredibly panas.
and we were hot and smelly and sweaty.
but we didnt care.
we had each other for company and for fun.
and we didnt give two shits about anything like homework and nonsense and suchz
we focused on us then and there.
and that was what made that awesome short little trip to the playground so joyous for me.
it reminded me of how unencumbered life can be
if i take the effort to set aside time for genuine love and happiness.
so it did rain afterwards
but we didnt let it dampen our really high spirits (:
we had our own fun, i supposed if you consider farah, feena and ama watching _____ on miotv fun xD

the other day
my nephews had a sleepover here <3
they came into my room
and pretended my bed was a bus
danish was the bus driver
and adib was the passenger (:
i just watched on, cos they were too cute.
they taught me something that night.
who knew they could.

last week made me happy because i watched lots of netball
on wednesday stayed for the b div semi finals
and on friday watched the third-fourth play offs (:
reminded me of how much i missed being on court
it's really somewhat the only place i can shine, if i do actually put my best foot forward
i hope my netball career wont end too abruptly
i would just diez seriuzly.
it's been a humbling experience
having to take things slow, one step at a time
i hope/am sure all the patience was worth the wait
because once i can, i'd be kicking and bouncing everywhere :D

i feel really happy all of a sudden tonight.
maybe because i finally understood bio.
please not let a SPA screw up my bio grade this year Ya Allah, Amin.
gel electrophoresis im gonna own you, ftw!

i. must. have. more. willpower.
last week i was only imba and pro at time management till wednesday
because thursday i got really tired and sick
and foom slept early like 930 early! (i know right)
and friday, i made an excuse it's TGIF and i shant do work
haha okay next week will be better
because i. will. have. more. willpower.
im going to find more effective methods of studying cheh
maybe at rj with kak amelinaaa (:
but that would also mean wasting time talking about how cute ______ is xD
oh well (:

okay everyone have a good week ahead
especially my fellow school friends
it's gonna tough with bio spa, math ga, hist pt due, ss fa, ss presentation, chem SA, math SA.
but next week friday is labour day = holiday for us labours wootz!

you make it easier when life gets hard ♥

2009-04-17T06:59:00.000-07:00

okay please give me a sebentar eh. maap ttm.

ARRRGGGGHHHHHHH!!!

okay phew dah. okay tyvm.

AMA IS STRESSED GILA TTM. MACAM NAK MELETUP ZOMG.

im so screwed for BIO SPA like seriuzly. not even seriously. but seriuzly. tak faham langsung want to mati lorh. then got the bio homework but i dunno where i put biozone ah serious.

then got MATH GA on r formula which we only learnt two days ago. omgodd tak fair seh. belum recover dah foom, in your face a math GA ):

then got SS FA. pantat ah i forgot we had to collect it after school today. so now im FA-less and its due monday. it would be a cool excuse not to hand it in on monday but then it's not so cool ah now SS SA in week 7 sia.

then got HIST PT. walao i must go see mr mizar but takda time seriuzly ):

and the bloody SS presentation. wth is our group doing again.

then got all the SL stuff. i ♥ project FAB ah seriously. there're paperbags and a donation can to make. next week is super eggciting cannot wait manzz.

28th april is CmPS PRESENTATION. oh god it's killing me like it's fine and everything but the nervousness that you have to deal with macam unbearable.

and then FOOM comes all the SAs yippeeyippeeyayyayy!

then this weekend dah full ttm ah. like ORA which takes almost the whole day away. not that im complaining cos im looking forward to netball booth and first jalan-a-larilarianak-athon :D :D and sunday got laoren, not that i mind ah but FRIENDS YOU GET WHAT I MEAN RIGHTTT

okay clearly i dont handle stress well.

i sound/feel like azira sia wth xD

i shall just print the ORA benda and talk to farah otp really.

then tido then all will be okay because i will doa damn hard before sleeping :D

2009-04-09T07:19:00.000-07:00

miss wani became part of the kawan baiks clan
so did mandi and juliet heehee (:

let me thank you first
thanks for all the happy you gave me
i felt on top of the world for a moment
and it was nice feeling like that, for once in my life.
then came all the shit.
let me thank you again.
if not for all that shit
i wouldn't have learnt what i have learnt
or become the person i hope im better at being
you got me to open my eyes really
and look out for greater distance
i guess Allah made sure everything happened for a reason
just that the reason behind this one seemed a bit too subtle and unnoticeable
till now of course.
now im damn bloody happy this bull crap happened (:

RN I LOVE YOU NO MATTER
just make sure you keep the RN love (:

ive been loving this week because it was full on kawan baiks fun timez.
my physiotherapist told me not to wear my knee guard anymore
now i have to step out of my comfort zone
i felt very good exercising albeit a bit
very tired today but refuse to sleep cos i wanna talk to diy online and sms farayye
must be all the happy youtube i was enjoying last night :D :D

(im still mega weirded out FAROT!)
and the best thing is
its TGIT thanks to the 4 day week.
i felt like dying today cos no mood to study and have lessons.
plus i had pikirans
and cos all i wanted to do was go home/sleep/watch idol/youtube :D
talk about JC subject combi during CLE made everyone feel so unsure about their future
including me.
WHATTHEPHUCK MAN.

kay dah.
hanissa and i must stop being so vulgar!

2009-04-06T06:37:00.000-07:00

you colour my life and imprint a perpetual smile on my face (:

every time i talk to you, it's like happiness reigns and all my doubts reassured

you make me go crazy and yet you can make me feel so right on track all at the same time.

you are clueless but yet i don't care.

you really don't know how awesome you are. how much you mean to me.

let you enjoy life, with or without me. just enjoy.

GOOD LUCK DIY AND LENNY AND OTHER TARIAN PEOPLE FOR SYF TOMORROW!

2009-04-05T04:25:00.000-07:00

who knew i could fall in and out and back again in love with you all so quickly (:

don't crush it. let it fade away slowly on its on at least. for the benefit of you and i.

2009-04-04T08:48:00.000-07:00

i went to redsports and AGHAST (cheh!) gripped me when i saw this:

"Group B consists of defending champion Raffles Institution, Catholic Junior College, Temasek Junior College ... "

it was an article on the upcoming A div games.
SAY WHAAAT. now it's RI Netball. SAY WHAAAT. i dont want to be an RI netballer next year. that so spoils the image (cheh!). i knew it was official and all but who knew it would catch on this way so fast. RI Netball? SAY WHAAAAAAAAT!

anyway just now i was crafting a letter in malay
then i asked ayah to check it. i meant for him to check the content. but he went on to check my teruk bahasa.
MAK KAUUU stressed siot, ahli BH checking your malay.
ayah even went "APA INI AYAT!" hahaha.

not blogging for a week makes my blog posts more exclusive eh? xD
heh

school this week was okay i guess.
didnt felt as "blissful" as last week though haha
but did new exercises at physio because my progress is vvv good
RNBDIV has been doing great. vvv proud of them.
i've been a vvv good gerr. finishing my homework all on time. and refraining from using the internet unless its solely for the purpose of school and research.
i also just finished my part for the RS report and my part pwnzxz man, serious. i took two days to do it. TWO DAYS!

tmr is cut hair day with kakak(:
and tmr is first time going for madrasah in more than a month.
fadhuah promised to help me up and down the stairs(:
tmr i must finish all math homework during tuition! like all the exercises at the back of the worksheet.
i must also finish searching for my feminism article and doing the lakaran karangan
and there's math journal (i know right!) summative on tuesday on probability.
"journal? oh are we still doing math?" hahaha.

oh and the other day i went to analyse a puisi for malay instead of a cerpen
because i malas heh
hopefully the fact that i chose to analyse something more difficult would cover up the fact that i was indeed malas (:
i have also been sleeping regularly at 10.30pm each night this week except for last night, because i was sick i ate ubat and DOOM tido, and tonight, because im still here at midnight (:

RNBDIV have damn tough matches next week.
i'll pray hard for you guys and RUSH ZOOM FASTFAST to your matches at 3pm even though school ends at 2.50pm

have been preparing fadhuah's present (:
hope you'll like it as much as i liked yours fads (: (:

okay this post has zero coherence mr jt would totally fail me if this was an essay.
LV & PC

2009-03-29T06:49:00.000-07:00

in the rice fields of cambodia ♥

at swensens at plaza sing ♥

i ♥ Happy Group Three LSL

i miss ya'll and was really glad to see us all together having fun and being happy again (:

what a shame mr lim couldnt be there LOL

this week was a strangely and surprisingly awesome week, really (:

1) RNBDIV did very well at first nationals match against RV (:

2) i slept for damn long in the bus on the way home from kallang netball centre and it felt damn shiok but the bus was too cold /:

3) one of the st margs netballers lives super near me!

4) bday was awesomez. spent the day for myself (: thanks everyone for the wishes and gifts and love.

5) ate out that night with ayah and ibu and guess what we had. SATAY! it's like a family birthday must-have.

6) diy and lenny's fashion show was awesome. everyone had really cool garments!

7) with fadhuah for a short but meaningful time. did a little bit of studying before we figured both of us were too hungry so we went to eat at pizza hut but was too late for the students meal by mere minutes ): fads had to leave for mindchamps (haha a lot of urm stuff involved!) and ayah fetched me home. nice to see her in after a month, finally! thanks for the gift, really awesome ILU ♥

8) im officially a kris allen♥ and matt giroud♥ fan ttm!! and adam lambert was cool sia.

9) had a really fun time doing math with hanissa haha. and had dreadfully fun chem with mona and audrey(:

10) abang fetched me from school to go to physio and gave me money to buy food at the canteen first because i skipped lunch and thus damn hungry and cos ayah forgot to give me money xD

11) abang also gave me money to cab home whoo!

12) cab uncle vv weird. but truly an experience talking to people like him whom i hardly get to converse casually with.

13) hanissa and i predicted correctly michael sarver is out

14) damn tired slept early and missed survivor ): ):

15) had HAPPY GROUP THREE OUTING. took forever to decide where to eat. like from far east to taka to taking a cab to plaza sing to taking train to plaza sing to eating at swensens but all is good because im damn happy so are they rest :D discussed LSL so we were quite productive do not doubt us!

16) cabbed home (what is it with me and cabbing i am such a pemalas man) rushed to get ready because bik ju and luqman were bringing me out to eat dinner at seoul garden. i ate until i felt i was gonna explode but yay damn happy. i smelled like barbeque when i got home.

17) found out david archu is coming to singapore for some opening of some new shopping centre near bugis. HANISSA AND I WANT TO GO!

18) my parents religiously listened to me and switched off the lights during earth hour. they didnt switch off the tv because manjalara was on xD yay im proud to say my family did their part and observed this special occassion(: i even bathed in the dark, just to savour the moment.

19) woke up and didnt go to madrasah /: sorry fads. then off to cmps to meet laorens and laoren lovers whom i havent seen in a while. session was good. we were too efficient again, and left early.

20) discussed about our report and deadline so tight ):

21) shared a plate of lemon chicken rice from kopitiam with hanissa(: i didnt taste the lemon though but still awesome cos it was with hanissa (:

22) went to ntuc with ibu just now and bought more dried cranberries to eat during ss (:

I LOVE THIS WEEK, REALLY SUPER FUN AND EGGCITING

school wasnt even all that tiring

and plus i was a vvv good girl i finished my homework all in time

2009-03-27T07:39:00.000-07:00

switch off your lights (and any other electrical appliances) for a mere one hour tomorrow, Saturday 28th March 2009 from 8.30pm to 9.30pm (:

2009-03-23T07:30:00.000-07:00

meakea ♥

miss cambodia and playing games with the cute cambodian kids.

bride&groom and cat&mouse. haha. fun yet embarassing memories :D

first day of term 2 cant start off any better eh

since nat and i screwed up the bio prac lol during first block bio xD

it's okay i guess

what better way to screw a bio prac if not with the BEST LAB PARTNER EVERRR ♥

love you natalie ong zhi xia (:

school lift broke down today

whatthetoot right

i had urm a fun time going up four flights of stairs :D

okay considering we had two free blocks today

we have tons of homework all suddenly bombarded us like WHOOSH

physics moodle wiki (?!?), physics assignment, chem group work, math worksheet

all from a mere four blocks for today.

well what is life without homework anyway right? (answer: bliss)

spent a great deal, okay most of, okay ALL of those two free blocks

talking about anything on the surface of this planet with hanissa :D

from youtube videos to american idol to manu losing to infinity!

my mulut kering talk to you hanissa

but it's good catching up since i have been MIA for two freaking weeks!

damn maybe i should've finished by homework during those two hours right heh

whatev. love hanissa still. haha.

TODAY WAS HAPPY DAY ALTHOUGH THEORETICALLY I EXPECTED A MOODY DAY :D

2009-03-21T10:14:00.000-07:00

(you can choose to ignore farah and i in this photo heh)

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY KAK AMELINAAA ♥

reallyreally love you. im sorry i never replied the grandangel letter you wrote me teehee but isnt it really cool how our names are so similar. you're really awesome thanks for all the retarded msn convos and mild gossipping and calling me at random times (you know right)! im very sad how we'll never be in the same school ever again. come back to visit rg soon because i/we really miss you. take care and good luck for all your CTs (:
♥

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i finish the physics quiz on moodle like ive finished mugging for the rest of my life like that haha

like it's such a huge achievement like that haha

okay im off to do chemmm 8D

2009-03-20T06:57:00.000-07:00

i blog everyday like im so free lik that.
okay missing cambodia ttm!
upset i missed selection camp, oh wells.

- my favourite cartoon to watch is totally spies ♥
- i dont cut my toenails, they disintegrate on their own (:
- i still keep a polaroid photo with sakura from a long time ago
- i think miley cyrus/hannah montana songs are quite nice, really.
- i cannot rollerblade
- i usually sleep with the tv on then ayah has to switch it off for me heh
- i go for facials with my mother twice a year
- i ♥ to eat raisins
- i watch disney channel a lot
- i still cannot tell which is cole/dylan sprouse but can identify them as zack and cody.

i had the weirdest dream last night
i dreamt that zac efron and hady mirza had a duet as guest performers on AI
and they were singing "right here, right now"
like wth ?

and today physio = mostest painest
because wah muscle strain owowow
i got to use the machines :D like the cycling and weights thing
next week physio gonna be after school
then go do exercise in my pinafore ah ? hmm.

okay dah off to do trigo ♥

2009-03-18T07:39:00.000-07:00

been trying to make sense out of the freaking electrochemistry shizz
but to no avail..
my brain is fried now. yum.
i shall try again another time and move on to history (:

i hate hoe fb announces every single freaking thing you've done while on it
sometimes you dont really need the whole world to know right heh

i dont know whether to continue studying or go to bed
cos today macam tak puas belajar
i figured i must get my study momentum going before school starts
so i wont be so stupid
but maybe i should sleep instead
then i won't have such a screwed sleeping cycle
but i tried that yday and only fell asleep at 2am
but not like studying is very sustaining
i almost fell asleep listening to the chem podcast on moodle
which is super retarded haha
i imagine the teacher talking to her laptop xD
HOW NOW BROWN COW.
oh wait maybe i should study myself to sleep
alright man.
monologue.

second attempt at chem!
much better but what is the freaking point of electrolysis in aqueous solutions?
all the products seem to be hydrogen gas and oxygen gas
might as well not put the salt, just water right
you'd still get the chemical energy right
WHOAHWHOAHWHOAH DILEMMA.

phew i almost did an entire essay that i totally didnt need to do
like the history SBQ was only meant for class discussion
ALHAMDULLILAH :D
but math is so ):
because my math ): ah that's why.
i shall try again tomorrow!
seems like i've been doing a lot but really it's so setotetlet
like still have to finish math assignment, do the chem assignment, do all the physics and chem moodle quizzes, malay book review AND hist pt draft
whoahwhoahwhoah strezzed manz.
i want to have math tuition this weekend
yea i can choose whether to have or not, depending on whether i need it
but i only dont know how to do 3 measly questions
macam not a worthwhile tuition right
DAYUMMM DILEMMA DILEMMA. TAK HABISHABIS DILEMMA. xD

oh well it's tido time!
now everybody thinks im a serious nerd 8D
oh well oh well oh

"feels like you're constantly studying/doing work but you're never done. guess it's sec4 life taking a toll on us and we just have to brace through it. guess school like that sort of prepares you of what is to come in the real world. better to learn how to adapt to a busy life now than screw up later right. just be more positive about it"
it's time i listen to my own advice.

2009-03-17T07:19:00.000-07:00

everybody can ogle at my nephew's KIUT-ness!

danish was younger. now he looks like a handsome young boy.

adib looks the same but now he's a bit urh chubbier (:
spent last night having dinner at Charcos with the family

and these two were super KIUT eating their nuggets and chips kiddy meal (:
they are so awesome and never fail to brighten up my day

like the younger siblings i wished i could have (:

really afraid for RN
time to snap out of it you guys
and Get Our Act Together (GOAT!)

i have nothing else to say except: I CAN WALK YIPPEE :D
triumph! jubilance! merry!
haha okay bye you guys
<3>

2009-03-16T09:51:00.000-07:00

miss chew ying yin a lot!

i don't H8 you okay! xD

misses cambodia like crazyyy too.

haha how appropriate im listening to jesse mccartney's how do you sleep at a time like this

im seriously turning nocturnal

sleeping super late in the early morning

waking up close to the afternoon

or having a really long afternoon nap

shucks what's happening to me

i know normal people enjoy sleep

but it's getting bizarre how the past week all i've been doing is sleep

haha beyond what i need to compensate from being deprived of during the term man

but okay lah maybe then term 2 i'd be more awake ?

i told you i'd start hist pt on sunday

haha big joke cos progress is zero :D

but will start tmr, pinky promise.

i've been having the most wonderful nights(:

filled with online conversations with the people i enjoy.

like siti and diy and mr beetle of course haha

siti and i got the chance (finally!) to catch up on each others' lives

and that was the most enriching convo i've had in a while

love you siti, keep on rockin' (:

i wonder whether my incredibly warped sleeping cycle has anything to do with anything else

it's 1.12am now

<3> ama!

2009-03-15T07:21:00.000-07:00

those smiles seem to reveal how unencumbered life was then.

how i wish, despite the corny, i could just pause time for a moment and embrace whatever im experiencing now.

life now doesnt allow that and that is a terrible loss for us all.

today was the direct opposite of momentous

nothing really happened today

except for waking up super late heh because i promised myself i'd finish philo the night/morning before, whatever it takes

and setting up the new printer

and watching sneak previews of the new season of hannah montana

oh i thought i was watching it with ibu

but then she was sleeping actually next to me

my mother and disney will never bind

because my mother and suci on sensasi is inseparable

azira and my mother should watch suci together xD

my hair is growing illegal

and by the time school starts

i'd probably need to tie my hair

but i can't find a way to do so without being bookable or looking like a toot 8D

should i cut my hair, or at least my fringe?

damn why have i resorted to blogging about my frivolous dilemma haha

i took a stupid fat test thing quiz online out of sheer boredom

apparently im a healthy weight

but i beg to differ hmm

i have this sudden infatuations for booties

ever since i fell in love with the ones katy perry wore in her music video of thinking of you

and i've been wanting a pair of mary janes for so long!

haha this calls for retail therapy

but that has to wait till i can walk properly

which is painfully, agonizingly long because im so impatient like that

speaking of which my urm learning how to walk progress is very encouraging (:

i can walk without the crutches now

just that my left leg is still a bit bent

and i walk very funny heh

i haven't left the house since thursday

and it's quite frustrating to be all cooped up and terkongkong 24/7 ):

oh well what can a girl do.

tonight feels like a bleaugh night

like no emotions

unlike last night i was so highhhh

shucks whenever i feel like this the stupid frust feeling comes back to haunt me

and i still haven't figure it out yet.

okay maybe i do know

i like to vent my frustration and disappointment and all the negative energy in me by going out for a run or during training or by punishing myself, giving myself absolute solitude away from phone and study at some library

but all these have been prevented

and plus not doing sports makes me feel fat /:

i'd like to sing my heart out and not give two shits about anything

but well my parents and neighbours would think im retarded

you see i usually sing randomly in school around friends and that keeps me happy

singing alone is just well, different and possibly stupid.

im sorry for such a self indulgent post

2009-03-14T09:53:00.000-07:00

misses cousins like shyte ):

too caught up with our own stupid busy lives

we don't take time to care about more important stuff like this.

tonight was happy

i had a very fun msn convo with mr beetle hahah :D

and i spent time with ayah (:

one of the very few, exclusive things my ayah and i have in common is

watching sports.

last time we watched the nadal-federer australian open finals

and tonight it was man u vs liverpool

haha okay shucks man u lost boohoo

but im still happy because i spent time with ayah

ayah was telling me the profiles of each player

although all i cared about was ronaldo and torres heehee

omg i have this thing for spanish-speaking athletes (nadal too!)

anyway and he was telling me

"oh 20min left in the game. alex ferguson will sub in players"

he even predicted the players getting subbed/subbed players correctly

IMBA AH AYAH.

okay waddaya expect from an ahli sukan like my daddy

i love ayah thanks for everything

okay im just really happy now

and i finally finished philo

over two days zomg i suck at keeping on track

it's quite crap but i dont care lah

and i tuition today was fun because tutor was being retarded

and i finally understood trigo YAY

gonna start on history PT tmr (:

REALLY REALLY DAMN HAPPY TONIGHT :D

2009-03-13T00:36:00.001-07:00

it's so difficult to do philo,
if you are indeed a believer
/:

now philo is making me angry >:(
that stupid frust feeling is slowly creeping in again
why oh why.

2009-03-12T08:24:00.000-07:00

gong xi fa cai (:

i feel so frustrated tonight.

like something's bothering me tonight.

like something is out of place.

like something in my life is missing.

i keep wanting to listen to emo-ish songs

with lyrics i'd like to listen hard to and analyse.

my head is throbbing.

i feel as if my life sucks right now

when actually, it does not.

i feel ignored and uncomforted.

i don't feel like me.

but i don't know what's wrong ):

(it's not pms, for sure)

give me a moment to wrap my head around this.

2009-03-10T04:58:00.000-07:00

1234 RN i ♥ youuuuuuu (:

im proud of you as well

for being true fighters albeit the tough situations we had to face up with

and i really feel lovedddd

no words could express the extent of my love for you, foshizzle

thanks for the unexpected gift

i seriously thought it was for mr thio xD

i had fun reading all the notes

although some of your handwriting are on the verge of illegible

and some of you write all over i must flip the board 360degrees

and some stars cover other stars xD

but all's good cos i love you despite it all (:

"super boring at home lah. my parents keep me on house lockdown" ):

"haha i know so bored until you study right"

"i tried doing math but got tired of it. shit bored is when you have nothing to do right. but i have lots to do just that i don't. damn that's not bored, that's lazy!"

hahaha xD

love you natalie ong (:

i bet you all the GS in the world are super happy this GK is down

cos before this urm downfall i had the drive you couldnt even imagine

and i would have taken you all down all you GS

if i can walk HEEEHEEEHEEE :D

2009-03-09T06:46:00.000-07:00

with the cheese donut :D
and my ugly tanlines show ASTAGA

physio today = pain!
tomorrow = FINALS!

it's sad to know despite this
you still cannot tell how important this is to me
you've never watched me play
or ever supported me
besides paying for my jerseys, shoes, etc
and fetching/sending me to games/trainings
those nice but shallow, superficial ways
now that im down
i have to find other special ways in which i can contribute
this is one small one and you won't even let me ?
i know all you have is concern for me
but please trust that i can take care of myself
because this time your greatest concern is mine too
do you even know im vcapt ?
bet not because all you want me to do is get straight As
not that i dont try it's something i want to achieve too
just give me the chance and time to do so
ive acknowledged whatever you've done for me
and ohmygod am i thankful for your presence in my life seriously
and doing well in school is practically my only way to repay whatever
you have done for me
but you know you can be proud of me for something else too
be proud of me for something i am constantly good at
because i am more than you think
im not as weak at this as you think
and now that im down you're overjoyed
cos now this cant distract me from getting those straight As
you desperately need to squeeze out of me
hello, it wasnt even in the first place
because i juggle these two well together
i have been for most of life anyway
i admit i havent been doing awesome in school
but please there are wayyyy more reasons way beyond what you think
to why this is so
now all i need is your support and prayer.
please?

hello RN <3
zonals season hasnt been smooth
damn it's the roughest i've ever encountered
some may have lost hope, lost faith, lost confidence
hey but im still standing strong (of course not literally)
why can't you ?
after every lousily-played match
i keep thinking to myself next one will be better foshizzle
it has become a somewhat vicious cycle that's difficult to break out of
but you know what
though im aware of that
im still thinking the same thing in my head
even at this stage of the competition
because deep down in me
i still haven't lost hope, lost faith, lost confidence
that is how much i believe in you RN
tmr is the halfway mark
make the best of the other half to come
tmr is time for redemption
gain back coach's trust and faith in us
let's focus on overcoming ourselves
before we think of overcoming our opponents
get over that stupid mentality block we have in our heads
because really raffles netball did not nurture us to be weak up there
dont translate those stupid mentality blocks into excuses
because that is the worst raffles netballer you can be
whatever the excuse, if any, do it because you owe it RN
do it to prove to yourself you are worthy to be part of RN
sleep well. eat right. tmr is it. (:

good things take a really long time to happen

but great things happen in a blink of an eye (;

im really hoping ?

because so far there're no dark clouds in the sky

just question marks in my head.

been praying for one that's sealed with a velvet touch

who knew i'd stumbled upon an answer to that prayer so soon.

ok enough of the meluahkan perasaan terpendam shizz (cheh)

11) i enjoy buying flowers for my mother.
12) i like bright blinding colours heehee
13) hanissa and i will drive to france one day!
14) my favourite thing to watch is reality tv really xD
15) i enjoy life's simple pleasures(:
16) i enjoy good company.
17) i eat like a glutton but work it off after that (most of the time ah)
18) the things im afraid of are all intangible
19) i can finish a pack of mentos in record time
20) im quite deep, believe it or not

im gonna copy paste something i got off diy's blog because i support/sokong this 100%.

"I think Pesta Perdana's standard has been dropping over the years. Firstly, it's too westernised. I'm just so disgusted by how the 'celebrities' try to westernise themselves in terms of clothing ala Oscars or Grammys. The media is supposed to set a good example for our youngsters - especially Malay youngsters, in the case of Suria. But you look at how the 'celebrities' dress, it's no wonder nowadays our Malays teens dress up as if there is limited cloth available.

It's just that I'll stop supporting or even respecting them when it comes to a point where the media is not setting a good example for the viewers. Especially religiously."

NODS HEAD VIGOROUSLY IN AGREEMENT!
all the halters, tubes, spaghetti straps, plunging necklines, cleavage-showing are just big turn-offs. be aware you guys are representatives of the Malay-Muslim community of Singapore. im not saying i epitomize the essence of a good righteous Muslim but just something to take note of.

yesternight was downright gay happiness :D
tonight was thought-provoking and intellectually stimulating (:
glad to have thought of something meaningful tonight.

and im really proud of SARAH FADHUAH BINTE MUHAMMAD SADIQ TOH for attending madrasah albeit the tough circumstances(: hold on fads, i'll be back before you know it.

eh shucks i look damn sememek in all the redsports photos sia whatthetoot do i look like that all the time ): ):

LOVE AFTER LOVE FROM AMA!

(wow what a helluva long post dey!)

2009-03-08T05:18:00.000-07:00

yay webcam session with adri way back then when we should have been mugging for math review test :D
we were showing off our respective embarassing pillows that we must sleep with each night heh
okay mine not so sikrit anymore
since entire OSL knows of my groovy girl /:
i have very unglam ones with diy
shan't distress her too severely haha

today was happy day :D
thanks for making my day you guys.
my plan for my 2 weeks of nothingness would be:
study & physio & read books :D
im trying to excite myself whoohoo

to entertain myself ah korang buat bodoh pun i tak kisah
1) i dont like bawang/onions but i like onion rings/cincin bawangs.
2) my most disliked fruit is pineapple. like i even pick out the pineapples out of my hawaiian pizza. (shuddup kawan baiks i know what you guys are laughing at)
3) i hate taugeh and petik-ing taugeh for that matter.
4) i dont see the point in making my bed.
5) i ♥ coach bags and F21.
6) i like stripes, polka dots and other repetitive patterns.
7) i ♥ HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL. shuddup don't laugh.
8) i want to learn all the wonder girl dances, especially nobody.
9) i ♥ vitasoy :D
10) i enjoy deep meaninful conversations (:

tonight is so full of joy and smileys and hugs and kisses. i feel real happy and loved (:

2009-03-06T05:31:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LENA HAZIQAH! :D
sorry i cant be there for you sweet sixteen. love you till the ends of the planet and thanks for all the nonsense you've filled up my life with. more binge sessions and urh kawan baiks time (youknowwhatimeaneh) to come. oh you can officially take me out of cheerleading ah haha.

TO THE RGS POPULATION WHO IS FREE TUESDAY AFTERNOON:

please come down to support Raffles Netball at their Finals this Tuesday 10th March 2009. Our B and C Div Netball players have played hard and successfully made it to the Final of the South Zone Inter-school Netball Championship. The RGS Netball team will be playing against CHIJ (Toa Payoh) and St Margaret’s in B and C div respectively on 10 Mar (Tue) at Yishun Sports Hall. The C div game is at 2.00 pm and the B div game is at 3.15pm. It is expected to end at 4.30pm. Supporters who are interested in lending your support and cheering for our team, please respond to the survey by 8 Mar (Sun) 11.59pm. The survey can be found here. http://inet.rgs.edu.sg/school/students/Lists/Supporters%20for%20Southzone%20Interschool%20Netball%20Final/overview.aspx

The confirmed list of supporters will be put up on 9th Mar (Mon) 9.00am. Please do check INET for this announcement.

A one-way transport will be provided. Please be informed that you

1. must not miss any summative assessments during this time,

2. ensure that you do not have any Learning Journey Activity from 1.00pm to 5.00pm. If you wish to support and have LJ activities, you will have to do a rearrangement of activities with your respective teachers.

3. should report at the Foyer punctually at 1.00 pm. The bus will leave at 1.15pm sharp.

4. have to bring your activity cards, duly completed, for signing. Thank you!

:D :D
haha shucks i just copypasted the entire inet announcement damn i am so lame. but seriously ah go support (:

2009-03-04T07:05:00.001-08:00

it was the day KJ, hanissa and i were very smart and fast at math and decided to arrange our zigs lik dat while math teacher was still explaining stuff :D

i'd like to thank everyone who has pushed me on the wheelchair before

natalie ong (though you quite suck and need audrey's help up the slopes)

audrey yee

mona chin

wang zhen zheng

nur syarfeena

hanissa saad

amanda tan

cheryl lee

hanis nazierah

nur diyanah

kang jie

soh xiao ting

koh (although yours is out of impulse)

toh wan hui

veronica teo

dharani

nancy jiang

zhang liting

others who i have missed out

haha thanks ♥

and there are very pro pictures of pro nancy on redsports playing pro tennis :D

good luck to me *polka dots and smiley faces*

i dont need your sympathy. just your concern.

2009-03-02T05:31:00.000-08:00

a little happy has started to sink in these few days (:

today i learnt something really valuable

though i cant be literally on court playing

i can provide the hugest amount of support ever

and watch the game learning for them

thanks for being there for me netties.

i'll be there for you too, for sure.

today albeit not awesome

was truly a momentous bump in the journey we're embarking on

as RN09 all the way to the national finals

maybe we really needed this wake up call

(just before finals)

to get us back on track

now we've got all the frustration built up

and the motivation to succeed

and the mental strength

to bring on and respond to the challenge IJ has in store for us

and to fight back on like rafflesians do

play like raffles <3

10th March Yishun Sports Hall here we come!

exams have been urm alright so far ?

i mean so far cos there's still chem SPA and history (yea i defered mine)

chem was urm wonky ttm like i knew how to do the questions but ohmagod the level of uncertainty i have with my answers is like sky rocket high

malay was downhill ttm because i felt my isi were so superficial and lacking depth and analysis /:

ss was urh okay. still lacked that oomph.

math was awesome! looking forward to a 4.0 i hope (:

english was OKAY ah cos the compre a bit cheem ah but can do ah. ah. ah.

bio was good (: another 4.0 to look forward to. the paper was sooo a n d r e w c h i a

PHYSICS WAS TERRIBLE. I HANTAM INSERTED THE FORMULA INTO EVERY QUESTION. DIEZXZXZX A MORBID DEATHZXZXZ!

im hoping to ace chem SPA

and get at least 3.6 for hist because history teacher is nice i shall do him a favour and study heeeheee

okay tonight is slack cos there was amazing race damn

okay bye gonna revise chem because i heart chemistry 8D

2009-02-28T07:06:00.000-08:00

never had my emotions been crushed beyond salvage
and uplifted with TLC all at the same time
to an extent it has somewhat become a little to overwhelming
to know that i have the capability to make it far
but with this unexpected hindrance that cropped out of nowhere
it kills me inside out to know that however far i can go
i just can't
but then this has become a humbling experience for me
it dawned on me how much i have to be dependent on the people around me
for emotional and physical strength
i have come to appreciate those who care about me more
it all makes me stronger
it's Allah's test of my mental strength
i can pull through, for sure.

thanks abang for mengincang(?)/piggyback me up to the house
thanks adib and danish for pushing me around the house
thanks ayah for sending me to and back school/home/hospital and paying the damn bills
thanks ibu for being so patient with me
thanks friends for being so helpful
thanks netties for the prayers and support
and thanks everyone for all the love

the pain is numbed by love, seriously♥

2009-02-22T03:23:00.000-08:00

with ibu (:

today i helped ibu tukar cadar, pasang langsir, rearrange the furniture (so random right, i know! ibu felt like the fengshui was imbalanced i guess haha) and lipat kain.

the anak dara in me emerged!

i heard something

and it hit me hard

i feel like crying

why do i care so much about such unimportant stuff like this

when i need to focus my attention on stuff like school and netball

but it doesnt matter does it

it still bothers me no matter what

how can everything seem so sure

but then again doubt starts to sink in

and i break myself apart

i really really want the best

but how do i get to where i want

with so many obstacles and challenges i have to face with along the way

my little infatuation apparently has grown to something larger

without me realising/knowing

you really make me feel angry sometimes

why can't you just understand

i have changed whether or not it's good

what about you?

shucks i need to have better control over my emotions

this is something not worth crying and getting distracted

go away.

why do i always invite _________ ?

why am i always the target for such problems like this?

because i am ______________?

what have i gotten myself into.

last week

i bought a heat-shaped helium balloon

cos PB was selling them in conjunction with vday to raise funds

i was so happy i had a balloon

i bought it for my nephews to play with it

that same night i bought it

while i was just doing work

i noticed it start to sink towards to floor

it floated all over around my room for quite some time

before finally gently landing on the floor

it has been sitting quietly all alone in the corner of my room

and today i picked it up

released all the urm air

and reblew it

it's now less deflated and more of a heart-shape

but it's still on the floor

amazing eh, the parallel

2009-02-20T05:31:00.000-08:00

adib <3

i miss playing with my nephews

i miss having free time to play with my nephews.

our little trip down to borders was nice

got the boys their thomas books and mr bean dvds (:

mummy let me buy a book too.

and just seeing their funny antics

makes me smile because i enjoy them

since i can't have younger siblings

i ♥ my nephews like they were my little brothers (:

albeit annoying at times hahah

raffles netball <3

well done today you guys

though not perfect and at times quite unsmooth

we fought hard and pulled through

everyone wanted to play hard and well

i felt that drive and want for the ball

awesome job you guys

this is just the start

there's more of RN you havent seen so watch out

HEHEHE im so funny.

thanks grace (: a lot

for like really supporting me all the time

thanks for being an awesome fellow defender

we're definitely doing better together now than we were in 2007 haha

i was worried for the match no doubt

and cos our pre-amk-match training kinda sucked haha

but like i knew RN could do it

talked about our goals during team talk

and like really visualised what will happen on court

warmed up all was fine

until coach started giving out the bibs

and i was like SHIT THE GAME IS NOW ?

my heart started pounding

and i was mega jittery

which explains my rashness during first quarter ah

i need to learn how to calm down earlier

for the more tough matches ahead

contacted so many times TTM

shucks. what is up with me and my lack of control sia.

i think i get violent when im nervous. shit thats bad right ?

and i wasted 2 shots cos of my stupid three feet jump/obstruction ):

could have stayed closer to the GS tighter

gotta be stronger for ALL rebounds, ALL.

talk to grace more! seriously lacking communication.

set up was too early

and stupid little mistakes like mispasses and stepping

my first stepping in years sia.

but i felt my lob interceptions were okay.

probably the only thing good i did /:

gillian came over to me after the match

and gave me a pat on my shoulder saying "well done!"

but do i really deserve it ? especially coming from such a respected senior as gillian ?

i thought to myself again

why the hell was i damn bloody nervous before/during the match

is it because im wearing cheryl's bib ?

or is it cause i lack confidence in myself ?

people think sec4 like easy breezy cos ur the seniors so you should be the most pro ?

wow okay that is so not true for me

as a sec4 i feel more pressured to do well

and therefore, i dont do well ):

cos i think i realised it is my final year and i wanna make the best out of it

being the reserve last year just in case anything happened to cheryl

felt so painful because i know i was good

just not good enough.

but now i realise

being on court is no walk in the park either

as u put on the bib, you're also bestowing upon yourself this responsibility

and i really wanna maintain that zonal champs, the very least.

DAMN

shall sleep on it tonight

and do my netball journaling (:

♥♥♥♥ RAFFLES NETBALL! :D

2009-02-19T05:55:00.000-08:00

today was farot and amalinot (yes this i accept) bonding time

we had 4 hours to burn before our respective CCAs started

so..

had crispy noodles for lunch at Cahaya our favourite place with sabot and farot (:

and did nonsense in the malay room (haha big surprise)

until cikgu came in for sec2 malay lesson

then we ciao-ed to canteen eat ice cream heehee

fed adrot, lenny and sabot who were kesian stuck at SLI rehearsal our ice cream cos we so generous like that hehehe

and had a walk around school

just to talk (:

it doesnt matter what you do with your kawan baiks right

as long as you're with them

you're having the time of your life (:

today i discovered a dilemma

not worth pondering over too long

but still

i will have to face it eventually right

how can one little problem affect so many other people

so many other people so important in my life

maybe cos maturity in a person finally prevailed ?

shit this sucks.

i cant disappoint ___. i love her too much.

on a slightly different note

GO RN <3

tmr crucial match let's give our all alright.

put aside everything that has happened

and focus on this match first

PLAY LIKE RAFFLES (:

2009-02-18T06:35:00.000-08:00

MEGA PANIC MODE!

dont panic, panic!
CHEMISTRY IS TMR
AND IM PRACTISING SOME QUESTIONS
BUT MOODLE DIED
COS TOO MANY PEOPLE ARE ON IT
DUH RIGHT HAHAHAH
SHIT SO NOW I THINK RIGHT
IM GOING TO CALL IT A NIGHT
I THINK I HAVE STUDIED ENOUGH
SO LATER WHEN I SOLAT ISYAK I WILL DOA VERY HARD
AND SLEEP WITH MY CHEM TEXTBOOK
COS I BELIEVE SOME INFO MIGHT JUST TRANSFER TO MY BRAIN SUBCONSCIOUSLY
IM SO HIGH
MAYBE COS I HAD AN AFTERNOON NAP JUST NOW
YEA I KNOW AFTERNOON NAP! HAAHHA!
GOOD LUCK EVERYONE FOR CHEM
OH YA
TONIGHT MELAYU DITELAN, BUKAN OLEH BAHASA INGGERIS, TETAPI KIMIA
YA ITU LAH APA YANG SELALUNYA BERLAKU JIKA UJIAN KIMIA DAN MELAYU PADA HARI YANG SAMA
TAPI MELAYU KITA POWER HAHAHA
JADI BOLEH LAH EH

BYE AH

2009-02-15T04:51:00.000-08:00

daughters of a better age, with ties on you see!
pre OSL sharing at hall assembly
sempat take photo eh!

SARAH FADHUAH BINTE MUHAMMAD SADIQ TOH!
i love you and our oh so devious plan
haha it shall be our dirty little secret For Life.
come online! we need to discuss our follow up to this plan haha

shucks
my back pain won't go away
and it was really hurting at training yesterday
like i couldnt bend down without letting out a little yelp under my breath
HOW.
go away back pain go away.

i need to ____ ______ before i go to __ because i am very ___. so that i can ____ ______ without feeling __________. shucks why am i so lame.

tonight i must finish all my math assignments
eh actually i finished already lah but i did it so slipshod-ly so better go check
and physics worksheet
and hist FA
and i plan to sleep by 11pm.
HOW?

bye.

2009-02-14T05:30:00.000-08:00

pretty people i ♥ dearly (:
Happy Vday to the people in my life.
thanks for making my life awesome.
i hope i've made yours somewhat as awesome too (:

i miss my abangs and kakak ):
so sad about our age gap
leaves hardly any time to have fun together
thank you for splurging on me all the time! :D
and making jokes about me
and bullying me (but i dont mind, too much)
Happy Vday to you (:
ILY muchly hope to see you soon

kawan baiks :D
we need to get our mojo back manzxz
like all the merepek kerepek original not crispy but lemau jokes!
walaupun kita sekarang lebih sibuk
kita perlu mencari masa untuk berseronok bersama-sama
kita perlu menghargai masa yang kita masih ada bersama
kerana siapa tahu, mungkin kuasa luaran menyebabkan kita tercerai ?
OKAY I TIADA IDEA APA I NONSENSE ABOUT SO FOOOLSTOP/of shit.

thanks tablemates - hanissa and KJ
for keeping me awake during lessons like physics!
and making stupid jokes
and singing stupid songs like
ROLL OVER THE OCEAN ROLL OVER THE SEA GO AND DO YOUR PART TO BUILD COMMUNITY
helping me with math, oh god and possibly every other subject you know right im too smart for myself xD

thank you raffles netties
for all the junk yet meaningful food
you guys put in so much effort to prepare/bake
despite ms chng's advice to not eat too much unhealthy food
cos well it is season right haha
RN is a huge subset of my RGS life
you guys have really made an positive impact in my life
thanks for making me become a better person, better vcapt for you guys (:

speaking of which
i totally let my training goals today slipped my mind ):
okay i didnt forget but i just didnt achieve them ): ):
now there's another problem:
i have to stop over-predicting the shooters' movements!
another piece of evidence to how im too smart for myself
and i need to be more daring to get those interceptions outside circle
DAYUMMM
another match this monday
ya Allah please let me pull through
i was quite pleased with our short run
i was pacing zhen and probably the best i've ran in ages (:
that was the only good thing serious, running whatthetoot

is this a mere infatuation im experiencing
or is it something more
why the hell would it be
why the hell would i want myself to go through anything similar to that
why the hell does it have to be you out of a gazillion out there
shit.

THE FIRE YOU IGNITED :D
GOOD BAD AND UNDECIDED :D
BURNS WHEN I STEP BESIDE IT :D
YOUR LIGHT IS ULTRAVIOLET :D

i seriously wanna go for swim.

2009-02-13T04:37:00.000-08:00

Keep Your Love Locked Down ? (:

haha LOVE.
today was nice.
because everyone was going around giving each other
hugs, chocolates, candy, notes, balloons, flowers and wishes
it's nice to be in an environment where everyone is so grateful for one another
just pure gratitude for the friendships we have (:

raffles netties ; kawan baiks ; kakaks ; adiks ; tablemates! ; 408'09 ; recess/lunch buddies ; chem/camp buddy ; OSL Cambodia'08 ; happy group! ; noode members ; family ; play!group ; SARAH FADHUAH <3

albeit cheesy, what would my life be without you

today was yet another awesome TGIF (:
the best thing about a disgustingly strenuous week is the end of it :D
and to find out you've survived it
eh speaking of survive, tonight got first episode of new season of survivor: the brazilian highlands, i think!
then monday got new season of amazing race
and AI top 36 next week too with the rough neck michael and stevie wright and anoop desai's group (eew i hate tatiana btw ttm!)
to think i have chem and math next week
ss and math and history nextnext week
and bio and physics and english nextnextnext week
is super disheartening
OH MAN AMA DOES SUPER SAD FACEEEE ):

ama is incredibly disappointed at herself from wednesday's match
sucks i played like shit
with a mere one interception per quarter
and even those were mistakes that the opponent overlooked
hardly any rebounds or proper three feet jumps or lob interceptions
which i am supposed to not be struggling with right now
and i wasn't tight enough on my GS whatthetoot right
and there were too many sideline set ups i missed, just too many
cos my feet wouldnt move damn.
shucks not now ama
too early to start going downhill downward towards epic failure
im so sorry netties b div
being the back line defence i understood my responsibility to retrieve back the ball at such a crucial position of the court
too near to where the opponents can attack easily
sorry i disappointed you guys
i couldnt control my emotions either which sucks
like all the frustration, stress and disappointment i had within me
just translated into my seemingly "angry cheering" at you guys
but really my intention was to remind everyone of our goal
and to remind everyone why were we playing in the first place
to remind everyone we were playing the sport we love
to keep everyone's spirits high
sorry if you felt pressurised instead of encouraged
i'll work on controlling my emotions, promise.
next technicality to work on:
- stick closer to opponent. dont think so hard about what goes on outside the circle. focus on my little part first.
- communication with grace still needs a lot of work, though improving
training tmr, will keep these two in mind.
and everyone let's pray for quick recovery for jing han and her elbow, iva and cat and their knees, and jia and her back
we have 4 down, and 8 left with 7 spots to fill and 2 defenders left to fill up the defending positions and 2 shooters left to fill up the shooting positions
not the ideal Raffles Netball B Div 09

okay freak
i hate what you have become
please stop being like this
because i value us, really.

im so fired up tonight
i feel like going for a swim
FACK WHAT HAPPENED TO A SUPPOSEDLY GOOD NIGHT ?

2009-02-10T07:23:00.000-08:00

our cheeseburger happy meal day cum tak sedar dah tua day :D
but happy meal is awesome
cos it's just the right amount of serving at a low price
WITH A TOY :D

i am damn imba man (haha new word whoohoo!)
i got home at around 6ish
makan play with my nephews a while mandi watch tv a bit
started on work at 8pm
did physics practical worksheet, malay latihan imbuhan and prosedur kloz, math assignment 3, malay karangan corrections, uploaded PLAY! video up on fb (xD), signed up for TIOMAN :D andd enrolled myself in bio, english and philo moodle whoo!
not bad ah for a person who gets easily distracted
:D :D

wah shit my backache aint going away
but my red bull finish already
so it's not the periodical backache i assumed it to be
DAMNNNN
im so problematic gosh
and there's a match tmr
im supposed to have recovered from the nasal congestion
and now got this
DAMNNN

okay lah tido time my friends
i can still do work without going on a fake hiatus (hear that lenny! xD)

2009-02-09T05:39:00.000-08:00

zomg this photo so funny ttm!

ama's elevation pwnzxz farayye's xD

today deserves a TGIF

but it's only monday ): ): ):

monday blues i guess ?

school was draining cos it was philo then english then math then ss then malay then physics

wanted to diee at last blockkk

and there was training that deep in my heart i wanted to convert to a nap session

but it was fine

ZHAO WAN TING STOP LAUGHING AT ME FOR NO APPARENT REASON!

hahah okay lah i (L) you zwt

i have an awesome to-do list with 17 stuff on it

and it's not exhaustive

): ):

and i cant bring myself to do any

because im too tired

): ):

TMR GOT RS YAY!

i told sarah just now, i cant be bothered to chase after a person who'd rather keep running away. because im sick and tired of all your nonsense, serious.

2009-02-08T04:41:00.000-08:00

yay i ♥ flo cho! i award you best improved in the fine art and mastery of the cambodian accent (:

oh and the current mentors, if you do need help dont be shy to approach any of us, especially ME for help. we'd be happy to!

so all this while

i've gotten to know a person whom didnt exist

have i wasted my time ?

now i feel as if i don't know you anymore

people change i guess

but this has made it harder for me to accept others around me easily

not the time to get distracted ama

with season

and all the stupid CES

(omg sorry mona. i didnt realise that i might actually cry when i said im going to cry. it's just sometimes i feel sorry for myself, yes myself, for being so stupid.)

omg so funny chem dept wanted to be funny like math dept

so they have chemfire! xD

and all the commitments

i can't disappoint anyone anymore, not my parents

not myself especially

i need to stop wasting money!

like eating out!

gawat ekonomi sih.

and i need to stop wasting so much time!

prioritise better!

and train very hard!

because i dont want to lose out my final year!

i want to feel the feeling of double champs before i go away

because you can't have double champs in JC

there's only one div.

a certain someone was counting down to a birthday

and i got excited for mine, haha i know a tad bit too early right.

im so excited for another birthday

but then i realised birthday = growing another year older = being 16!

wah dammit.

cos the other day someone asked me how old i was

i answered confidently 15, not thinking it was already 2009.

okay techinically im still 15 ah but you know right what i mean.

OKAY WHAT A DISGUSTINGLY INCOHERENT POST. I HATE NOW I DUNNO WHY MUST BE THE DMS. LENNY YOU GOT POKER FACE STUCK IN MY KEPALA HOTAK POPOPOPOKERFACEPOPOPOKERFACE.

(L) and (:

ama.

2009-02-07T05:06:00.000-08:00

more of adrot farot amalina nonsense in the bilik melayu
we aren't afraid of being unglam
because we sememek 24/7 anyway
why everyone so on about malay nowadays.
check out whencicakmeetslalat.bs
baik lenny punya melayu.
must be cikgu and his fine work of memupuk-ing in his murid-murid a sense of cinta towards the malay language
clearly i have not benefited from it
because my karangan still over there
ya over there like the mocca man

yesterday was a TGIF to remember
to add on to the friday math review test was overrr :D
like super tired yet super satisfied with the week you knowww
two matches
two hollywood week episodes of AI
(yay bikini girl keluar padan muka kau!)
and still had kawan baiks time :D
but CES is bothering me
more like the godzilla is bothering me
TAKPA AMA KESABARAN SEPARUH DARI IMAN

last night + today = ama tak tentu arah day!
because my internet wonky last night
so i pissed ah kan pissed
so i on tv watch tv ah then
then i tertido because tido ah kan penat
i fell asleep at 10 or smthg
like the earliest ever in 2009
i know right!
then mummy woke me up in the morning and asked
"amalina nak kena pergi sekolah pukul brapa?"
i said 8am walaupun house prac start 7.10am
i also dunno why /:
but in time for cheer prac!
YAY I LOVE OUR CARDIO WORK OUT!
oh i missed breakfast also
because i forgot because i wasnt hungry
PELIK KOT.
then cheer prac sure burn them calories kan cardio workout per
but after cheer prac zoomed off for the perbayu meeting
tak fikir pasal lunch langsunggggg!
then after the meeting zoomed back to school for training yo
by cab seh cos i was late
damn wasted 7bucks ah ):
then while i was running over to the courts
they were running off for 20min run
so i dropped my bag (like it's hot) at some random corner
stripped my cullotes off hahahaha
and ran off!
tak ingat nak warm up also!
then during one of our drills
i felt super empty and like smthg wasn't right
then it dawned on me!
i havent eaten a single thing the entire day!
zhen was like "wah like that really busy already. forget to eat and not even hungry."
which is true i guess
but like it's my typical saturday hmmmmm
okay but i ate dinner ? and after training food ? so all is good ?
??????? xD xD

i documented my day for you avid readers
cheh ama aksyen seh skali takda orang yang baca
BYE I MUST FIND THE RIGHT TIME FOR KARANGAN TIME :D

2009-02-04T05:13:00.000-08:00

YOU GIVE ME A REASON TO LOVE YOU, RN!

haha this was the day our group had to do the forfeit for failing miserably at dog and bone netball style
it was to go across the entire court doing some weird madagascar thingo
haha reminds me of FEEZEEKALI FEET xD

i look forward to each morning
to see you guys sitting on the court slacking
catching up on undone homework, shooting for the hardworking ones, napping
or simply just to talk and enjoy each others' company before school starts
my days start awesomely with you guys
seeing you guys around during school
along the corridors, during recess or lunch
and waving and smiling to each other
is just a nice, subtle way of saying i love you and thus am acknowledging your presence in my life
i do and feel that way
and then when it comes to training
despite crazy runs and sprints and all the tiring stuff coach makes us do
we still do it
why.
because of each other.
trainings are fun because you are there RN
my life in RGS would be incomplete without you, honestly.

the matches we've had so far, though unsmooth
have helped us grow to become better netballers, better people
with every minute we spend with each other
because we learn for and with each other
only three matches down i know
but before you know it
season ends foolstop
and you think to yourself
why hadn't i maximized my time during season
as much as we try to avoid that
we end up doing it anyway
because what we want to achieve is much more than we can realistically achieve
because we want to be with each other longer.

currently at a loss of words right now
so i hope that shows you how much RN means to me
wan ting zhen jia chiam juu iva char nat grace yihui sakeenah jing han vicky sherry yirong huimin jodi cat.

RAFFLES NETBALL B DIVISION 2009 WILL OWN

YOU TO THE MAX/min!

today's match was good for me

i felt the drive and the desire for the ball

and i totally appreciate the spirit of our opponent BM

truly awesome people who made the game enjoyable

i appreciated the challenge tyvm

now i need to work on communication with grace/cat/zhen

WILL ACHIEVE TTM!

2009-02-01T07:10:00.000-08:00

im waiting for the day you come back to RG kak amelinaaaa :D

this is utterly depressing how come i only have one measly picture with youuuu

i feel like nak mampos now.

suddenly wave of mixed emotions and i don't know how to react.

i don't know how to feel

although season started already, i like to think it will only start tmr because we had like an almost 2 week break between our first and second match

and it doesnt help that i have a disgusting nasal congestion that prevents me from breathing properly.

my fourth and final year as an rgs netballer. please amalina make this an awesome year for RN <3

oh and yes jia please get well soon. we want you back! (haha pun totally unintended, oh cos she hurt her back and cannot play)

and i cried the other day

when i realized i won't be going back to cambodia this year

wow, i didnt know it'd take this long to sink in

i believe i made the responsible choice

but why do i feel as if im regretting this.

on a plus side, I LOVE OUR SL PROJECT.

we're going to raise funds to buy the kids in meakea new bicycles to cycle to school.

well unlike us they do not have chauffers, cars, buses, mrts to send them to and fro school and it doesn't help that their school is a huge distance away from home and they have to wake up early just to walk to school on time.

i was inspired watching oprah's big give the other day

i'd like to do anything within my means, serious.

well, enough.

i have to sleep ?

yup.

2009-01-31T04:00:00.000-08:00

malay room gives you the privacy to do nonsense like this
therefore, this calls for a malay room in JC. strictly for girls SAHAJA and their need to solat (and do other nonsense) in a secluded and private area (:
it's like a secret retreat whoo! okay lah not so secret.
malay room in rgs used to be so penuh with rule-breaking melayus tak kira kakak ke adik, berkumpul bersama-sama menonton merepek kerepek di youtube.
sekarang kakak-kakak kita akan symbolically put on their green skirts soon
dan malay room kini kosong!
kecuali segelintir kami yang regular-comers seperti adrot, feenot, farot, diydot, hanisot, lenzot, sititot, azirot dan AMALINA (itu nama saya ty)
dengan itu, saya ingin membuat pengumuman kepada adik-adikku yang tersayang (cheh)
TOLONG DATANG LEBIH KERAP KE BILIK MELAYU KERANA IALAH TEMPAT LEPAK KITA. APAKAH SESUATU TEMPAT LEPAK KALAU TIADA TUKANG LEPAKNYA ?
wah baik ama.
maaf kalau terlalu over-malay-ish
sebab tadi cikgu nisa marah ah melayu kita rabak gilerrrr ttm
jadi ama sudah berazam untuk menggunakan lebih bahasa melayu (yang betul bukan pasar/minah xD)
INSYAALLAH :D
AMIN :D :D

wah yesterday was ama-ayah bonding timeeee <3
i started watching the australian open last night cos RAFAEL NADAL was playing
RAFAEL NADAL = ATHLETIC HOTNESS BEYOND BELIEF TTM
and it helps if your tv very wide ah
cos watching sports on wide tvs are awesome ttm
then mah daddayyye baru balik OPIS (xD) sat down next to me to watch it
then mah mummaayyee wanted to watch suci on sensasi, can join azira lah!
so daddy and i cabut to my bilik to watch :D :D
ayah was like "wah tangan nadal fooyoooh!" xD xD
then when it was like an awesomely long rally or a good shot, ayah would go "baik ah!" xD xD xD
never heard my dad so mat before
and he was telling me about tennis rules and techniques
macam lah i ni bodoh sangat youuuu
okay it was an awesome match TTM
they played for 5h14min
PENAT SIOTTTTT
like from 8pm to 1am ishh
i hope nadal beats federer by damn sikit in the finals cos that means an eggciting match 8D
and more ama-ayah bonding!!

but before i get to thaaaat
i must finish malay homework (what was it anyway?)
and SS FA
and chem worksheets!!
and EL! wah okay english homework damn stupid ah i dunno how to do seh.
and i must try to finish a lot by tonighttonighttonight!
because tmr got madrasah then cmps then tuition
BAGUUUUSSSS

dah lah bye ah